1 00:02:43,671 --> 00:02:46,933 "He that shall lose his life for me shall find it. 2 00:02:48,184 --> 00:02:50,093 "If thou wilt be perfect... 3 00:02:50,424 --> 00:02:54,101 "go sell what thou hast and give to the poor... 4 00:02:54,168 --> 00:02:56,078 "and come follow me. " 5 00:02:59,658 --> 00:03:03,105 Each sister shall understand that on entering the convent... 6 00:03:03,306 --> 00:03:06,535 she has made the sacrifice of her life to God. 7 00:04:36,245 --> 00:04:38,580 Well, are we off? 8 00:04:38,869 --> 00:04:42,579 -Whenever you're ready, Father. -Let's not wait for that. 9 00:04:45,109 --> 00:04:46,898 Your hat's on crooked. 10 00:04:47,605 --> 00:04:50,834 I tried to put it on without a mirror to get used to.... 11 00:04:55,925 --> 00:04:57,038 There. 12 00:04:59,752 --> 00:05:04,159 Marie didn't want to say goodbye. And I'd rather not see Louise. 13 00:05:04,487 --> 00:05:06,429 She'll be so upset and.... 14 00:05:07,080 --> 00:05:10,495 There's no chance. I'll wait outside. 15 00:05:16,359 --> 00:05:20,221 Now, Louise, I left some things upstairs for you and Marie. 16 00:05:20,839 --> 00:05:25,167 Divide the dresses, but you keep the blue ones because blue is your color. 17 00:05:46,795 --> 00:05:48,486 Take good care of Father. 18 00:05:48,556 --> 00:05:50,978 And don't let him do too many operations in one day. 19 00:05:51,052 --> 00:05:52,578 Why do you have to go, anyway? 20 00:05:52,651 --> 00:05:53,796 Pierre. 21 00:05:54,060 --> 00:05:56,995 Come along, Gaby, I ordered the table for 1 :00. 22 00:06:00,076 --> 00:06:02,313 I wish you all as happy as I am. 23 00:06:30,814 --> 00:06:33,629 Gaby, I can see you poor, I can see you chaste. 24 00:06:33,694 --> 00:06:37,674 But I cannot see you, a strong-willed girl, obedient to those bells. 25 00:06:39,120 --> 00:06:42,087 In the Congo, Father, they'll be calling me to work I love. 26 00:06:42,160 --> 00:06:45,476 You may never get to the Congo. You certainly can never ask for it. 27 00:06:45,552 --> 00:06:47,210 You know that, don't you? 28 00:06:47,601 --> 00:06:50,830 Your personal wishes cease to exist when you enter that door. 29 00:06:53,232 --> 00:06:56,396 Maybe it would be easier if I went in alone, Father. 30 00:06:57,136 --> 00:07:00,799 You're not an orphan. Or going without your father's consent. 31 00:07:01,378 --> 00:07:02,938 Please remember this, Gaby. 32 00:07:03,010 --> 00:07:05,978 Remember, if you ever decide this is not right for you... 33 00:07:06,051 --> 00:07:09,531 there is no sense of failure in coming back home. 34 00:07:41,269 --> 00:07:42,731 Sister William. 35 00:07:55,144 --> 00:07:57,053 -Dr. Van der Mal? -Yes? 36 00:07:57,128 --> 00:08:00,511 My name's Pascin. You operated on me five years ago. 37 00:08:00,584 --> 00:08:03,617 -Oh, yes. Left lung, wasn't it? -No, the right. 38 00:08:04,424 --> 00:08:09,028 -May I present my daughter, Simone? -And my daughter, Gabrielle. 39 00:08:14,170 --> 00:08:15,697 A great day. 40 00:08:20,602 --> 00:08:22,260 -Dr. Van der Mal? -Sister. 41 00:08:22,330 --> 00:08:25,199 I am Sister Margarita, Mistress of Postulants. 42 00:08:26,138 --> 00:08:27,316 Welcome. 43 00:08:29,498 --> 00:08:31,953 Of course you know Sister William from the hospital. 44 00:08:32,026 --> 00:08:35,339 Sister William and I have shared many an anxious hour. 45 00:08:38,061 --> 00:08:41,541 Sister William says Gabrielle will be a truly great nurse. 46 00:08:41,613 --> 00:08:44,297 I know you are largely responsible for that. 47 00:08:44,366 --> 00:08:48,359 -I'll miss her in my laboratory. -We'll put her to good use in ours. 48 00:08:49,518 --> 00:08:51,274 Real spirit, I think. 49 00:08:52,142 --> 00:08:55,884 Well, we call it stubbornness. You may, too, after a few weeks. 50 00:08:56,334 --> 00:08:58,239 We'll be going in shortly. 51 00:08:58,303 --> 00:09:00,987 -Good afternoon, Doctor. -Good afternoon, Sister. 52 00:09:04,063 --> 00:09:07,446 I suppose Sister Margarita is what they call a living rule. 53 00:09:07,520 --> 00:09:08,862 What's that? 54 00:09:09,151 --> 00:09:12,118 They say if the holy rule of a convent were destroyed... 55 00:09:12,191 --> 00:09:16,283 it could be recaptured by studying the behavior of such a perfect nun. 56 00:09:19,007 --> 00:09:20,949 -Doctor. -Sister. 57 00:09:23,121 --> 00:09:25,009 The dowry, I think, Father. 58 00:09:25,585 --> 00:09:27,887 Oh, yes, of course. 59 00:09:29,458 --> 00:09:31,051 Thank you, Doctor. 60 00:09:59,076 --> 00:10:01,312 Goodbye, Father. I'll miss you. 61 00:10:03,684 --> 00:10:05,211 I'll do my best. 62 00:10:05,892 --> 00:10:07,834 I want you to be proud of me. 63 00:10:08,004 --> 00:10:11,470 I don't want to be proud of you. I want you to be happy. 64 00:10:12,182 --> 00:10:13,459 I am happy. 65 00:11:26,350 --> 00:11:29,895 Gabrielle, your number is 1,072. 66 00:11:30,477 --> 00:11:31,819 Thank you, Sister. 67 00:11:31,407 --> 00:11:33,545 You are blessed to have this number. 68 00:11:33,614 --> 00:11:38,186 It belonged to Sister Marie Polycarpe. She was a nursing sister in the Congo. 69 00:11:44,239 --> 00:11:48,054 When you have your things, you will form two columns and face the door. 70 00:11:51,937 --> 00:11:53,660 From now on, your place in line... 71 00:11:53,728 --> 00:11:56,576 is determined by your age in this community. 72 00:11:57,633 --> 00:11:59,934 The first admitted is the oldest. 73 00:12:00,000 --> 00:12:02,008 That is Yvonne Duval. 74 00:12:02,368 --> 00:12:03,416 Here. 75 00:12:06,625 --> 00:12:09,839 Yvonne Duval. Henrietta de la Croix. 76 00:12:10,483 --> 00:12:13,996 Simone Pascin. Cecile de Planer. 77 00:12:14,771 --> 00:12:16,559 Gabrielle Van der Mal. 78 00:12:16,978 --> 00:12:18,440 Helen de Rode. 79 00:12:19,475 --> 00:12:22,770 Your hands must learn to stay still. And out of sight. 80 00:12:23,027 --> 00:12:26,191 Except when they're needed for nursing or prayer. 81 00:12:27,571 --> 00:12:29,873 I'm so glad you're here, Sister William. 82 00:12:30,099 --> 00:12:33,201 When you go through that door, I'm not here. 83 00:12:33,273 --> 00:12:35,456 For the six months that you're a postulant... 84 00:12:35,525 --> 00:12:37,052 and the year as a novice... 85 00:12:37,126 --> 00:12:40,159 we may not speak to each other except in matters of work. 86 00:12:40,454 --> 00:12:41,915 I didn't know. 87 00:12:45,830 --> 00:12:47,718 Do not fret about your veils. 88 00:12:48,102 --> 00:12:50,557 You will soon learn to dress without mirrors. 89 00:12:51,942 --> 00:12:54,976 As you will learn tomorrow when we start studying the Holy Rule... 90 00:12:55,046 --> 00:12:57,481 which governs our life here in the community... 91 00:12:57,912 --> 00:13:00,912 one of the first conditions is the rule of silence. 92 00:13:01,880 --> 00:13:04,629 Exterior and interior silence. 93 00:13:05,944 --> 00:13:09,327 We observe the Grand Silence from after chapel at night... 94 00:13:09,560 --> 00:13:11,600 until after chapel in the morning. 95 00:13:13,784 --> 00:13:17,199 We will go now into chapel for evening prayers. 96 00:16:29,447 --> 00:16:33,688 Dear children, you will have five days of instruction and preparation... 97 00:16:33,881 --> 00:16:38,038 before you are formally admitted as postulants by the Superior General. 98 00:16:39,258 --> 00:16:42,836 We constantly strive toward perfection by inner silence. 99 00:16:43,866 --> 00:16:45,655 The ultimate goal of this silence... 100 00:16:45,722 --> 00:16:49,137 is to make possible constant conversation with God. 101 00:16:49,818 --> 00:16:51,891 Therefore, we do not talk loudly... 102 00:16:52,154 --> 00:16:55,002 nor do we engage in useless conversations. 103 00:16:56,044 --> 00:16:58,183 We close doors quietly. 104 00:16:59,116 --> 00:17:02,913 Whenever possible, we use a kind of sign language. 105 00:17:05,292 --> 00:17:08,107 This means, "May I have permission to speak?" 106 00:17:09,260 --> 00:17:11,464 This means, "Excuse me." 107 00:17:12,781 --> 00:17:14,307 Shall we try it? 108 00:17:22,014 --> 00:17:24,949 We do this to attract a sister's attention. 109 00:17:26,366 --> 00:17:27,828 Just the sleeve. 110 00:17:28,190 --> 00:17:30,874 We never touch another sister, of course. 111 00:17:31,583 --> 00:17:34,485 We use signs, particularly during meals. 112 00:17:35,518 --> 00:17:38,235 We, of course, never ask for things for ourselves. 113 00:17:38,494 --> 00:17:41,877 Each sister is alert to the needs of her fellow sisters. 114 00:18:02,225 --> 00:18:04,680 In walking, dear children, we never saunter... 115 00:18:04,753 --> 00:18:07,902 as though we had no place to go. Nor do we hurry. 116 00:18:09,379 --> 00:18:11,714 When we walk through halls and corridors... 117 00:18:11,779 --> 00:18:15,259 we practice humility by walking close to the walls. 118 00:18:15,587 --> 00:18:16,602 Now. 119 00:19:03,815 --> 00:19:05,539 Tomorrow, in the chapter hall... 120 00:19:05,607 --> 00:19:09,568 the Superior General will admit you formally into the congregation. 121 00:19:09,671 --> 00:19:12,988 And you will begin your six months?terms as postulants. 122 00:19:14,663 --> 00:19:18,047 The Reverend Mother Emmanuel represents Christ among us. 123 00:19:18,408 --> 00:19:21,110 And as such she is loved and obeyed by us. 124 00:20:15,391 --> 00:20:17,562 What do you ask, my children? 125 00:20:17,951 --> 00:20:21,726 To be admitted into this congregation. 126 00:20:21,951 --> 00:20:24,188 Arise in the name of God. 127 00:20:32,497 --> 00:20:36,175 Dear children, it is not easy to be a nun. 128 00:20:36,786 --> 00:20:39,568 It is not a life of refuge from the world. 129 00:20:39,667 --> 00:20:41,641 It is a life of sacrifice. 130 00:20:42,162 --> 00:20:45,129 In a way, it is a life against nature. 131 00:20:45,875 --> 00:20:49,552 It is a never-ending struggle for self-perfection. 132 00:20:50,258 --> 00:20:52,975 Some of you will have more trouble than others. 133 00:20:53,618 --> 00:20:57,214 Poverty, chastity, and obedience are extremely difficult. 134 00:20:57,509 --> 00:20:59,930 Each of us here can assure you of that. 135 00:21:00,645 --> 00:21:04,387 The sacrifices that are required of us are bearable... 136 00:21:04,452 --> 00:21:06,819 only if we make them with love. 137 00:21:07,748 --> 00:21:10,815 Just as in the world we can do impossible things... 138 00:21:10,885 --> 00:21:13,306 with a glad heart for a loved one... 139 00:21:13,573 --> 00:21:15,296 so it is with us. 140 00:21:15,941 --> 00:21:18,275 We can endure greater sacrifice... 141 00:21:18,892 --> 00:21:23,278 because the object of our love is our Lord Jesus Christ. 142 00:21:24,055 --> 00:21:27,186 In order to come into closer union with our Lord... 143 00:21:27,767 --> 00:21:30,549 you will be submitted to exercises and tests... 144 00:21:31,223 --> 00:21:33,678 which are designed to root out your faults... 145 00:21:34,103 --> 00:21:35,728 curb your passions... 146 00:21:35,991 --> 00:21:39,057 and prepare you for acquiring the virtues and grace. 147 00:21:39,479 --> 00:21:42,381 If you question these exercises in humility... 148 00:21:42,649 --> 00:21:46,342 these steps towards a closer union with our crucified Lord... 149 00:21:46,953 --> 00:21:49,157 you do not belong with us. 150 00:21:50,185 --> 00:21:53,665 Cloistered life is made up of an infinity of small things. 151 00:21:54,249 --> 00:21:57,381 You must try to live the Holy Rule not day by day... 152 00:21:57,673 --> 00:21:59,299 but minute by minute... 153 00:21:59,369 --> 00:22:02,751 in a state of constant alertness against imperfections. 154 00:22:03,369 --> 00:22:06,566 The perfect nun is one who, for the love of God... 155 00:22:06,799 --> 00:22:09,561 is obedient in all things unto death. 156 00:22:10,523 --> 00:22:14,615 Remember, dear children, you can very easily cheat us, your sisters. 157 00:22:15,036 --> 00:22:18,614 But you can never cheat yourself. Or God. 158 00:22:32,782 --> 00:22:36,360 The postulant will learn strict obedience to the bell... 159 00:22:36,429 --> 00:22:38,120 which is the voice of God. 160 00:22:38,446 --> 00:22:41,031 Stopping whatever she is doing instantly... 161 00:22:41,101 --> 00:22:44,036 when it calls to other duty or devotions. 162 00:22:46,382 --> 00:22:48,902 What is served for lunch, do you know? 163 00:22:50,285 --> 00:22:53,449 It doesn't matter. They won't let me eat it, anyway. 164 00:23:23,891 --> 00:23:26,411 Twice each day for the rest of your lives... 165 00:23:26,483 --> 00:23:28,523 you will examine your consciences. 166 00:23:28,627 --> 00:23:30,383 And enter in these notebooks... 167 00:23:30,451 --> 00:23:33,517 each and every imperfection against the Holy Rule. 168 00:23:34,771 --> 00:23:38,481 For example, if you drink a glass of water between meals... 169 00:23:38,547 --> 00:23:40,489 without asking permission. 170 00:23:40,691 --> 00:23:43,124 If you leave a light on unnecessarily. 171 00:23:43,749 --> 00:23:46,978 If you're late for work, and so on. 172 00:23:48,230 --> 00:23:51,775 I accuse myself of breaking the Grand Silence. 173 00:23:52,485 --> 00:23:57,057 I accuse myself of uncharitable thoughts about my sisters. 174 00:23:58,085 --> 00:24:02,307 I accuse myself of having drunk a glass of water between meals without permission. 175 00:24:02,821 --> 00:24:05,920 I accuse myself of failing in modesty of the eyes. 176 00:24:06,503 --> 00:24:09,105 I accuse myself of worldly desires. 177 00:24:09,912 --> 00:24:12,945 I accuse myself of having spoken without necessity. 178 00:24:14,264 --> 00:24:17,264 I accuse myself of laughing during the Grand Silence. 179 00:24:18,616 --> 00:24:20,274 I accuse myself.... 180 00:24:23,608 --> 00:24:25,975 I accuse myself of daydreaming. 181 00:24:26,840 --> 00:24:29,458 -I accuse myself.... -I accuse myself.... 182 00:25:02,781 --> 00:25:03,893 Enter. 183 00:25:16,093 --> 00:25:19,689 Yesterday I visited one of our sisters who is ill in hospital. 184 00:25:19,759 --> 00:25:21,962 And your father was attending her. 185 00:25:22,895 --> 00:25:25,961 He asked about you. And about the Congo. 186 00:25:26,031 --> 00:25:29,708 And the bush station where he thinks you would like to do your nursing. 187 00:25:29,775 --> 00:25:33,452 I told him it was much too soon even to think of it. 188 00:25:33,807 --> 00:25:35,497 Of course, Reverend Mother. 189 00:25:36,367 --> 00:25:39,117 -I.... -Well, go ahead. 190 00:25:41,039 --> 00:25:43,357 I just want to become a good nurse and a good nun... 191 00:25:43,424 --> 00:25:45,312 and to do God's work wherever I'm sent. 192 00:25:45,377 --> 00:25:47,265 First become a good nun. 193 00:25:47,714 --> 00:25:51,009 We select only the very strongest sisters for our missions. 194 00:25:51,681 --> 00:25:55,358 Your nursing qualifications would seem to make you a likely candidate. 195 00:25:55,713 --> 00:25:59,488 But you are still very far from being mature in the religious life. 196 00:26:00,065 --> 00:26:03,327 Maturity is the armor of our missionaries. 197 00:26:04,097 --> 00:26:06,722 And this is not achieved in a day. 198 00:26:08,211 --> 00:26:10,578 Since tomorrow is the day of vesture... 199 00:26:10,643 --> 00:26:13,164 when you receive the habit of a novice... 200 00:26:13,236 --> 00:26:15,657 we must talk today about detachment. 201 00:26:16,595 --> 00:26:20,589 You have already detached yourselves from family and friends. 202 00:26:21,524 --> 00:26:25,899 Now we have the difficult detachment from things and memories. 203 00:26:27,219 --> 00:26:29,391 Tonight, when you go to your cells... 204 00:26:29,556 --> 00:26:31,963 you will find parts of your new habit. 205 00:26:32,646 --> 00:26:36,770 And on your tables, the only possessions allowed you from now on. 206 00:26:38,406 --> 00:26:40,315 A basket will be passed. 207 00:26:41,125 --> 00:26:44,125 And you must put in it, of your own free will... 208 00:26:44,805 --> 00:26:46,747 any object you still have... 209 00:26:47,302 --> 00:26:50,400 which might call up memories of your former life. 210 00:27:40,491 --> 00:27:42,433 What do you ask, my daughters? 211 00:27:42,930 --> 00:27:46,138 We ask for the mercy of God. 212 00:27:46,494 --> 00:27:49,144 And for the favor to be received... 213 00:27:49,214 --> 00:27:51,253 into this congregation. 214 00:27:51,614 --> 00:27:53,556 We offer our Lord... 215 00:27:53,630 --> 00:27:57,176 our liberty, our memory, and our will. 216 00:27:57,310 --> 00:28:01,750 And we ask only for His love and His holy grace. 217 00:28:02,654 --> 00:28:04,563 Are you firmly resolved... 218 00:28:05,021 --> 00:28:08,236 to despise the honors, riches... 219 00:28:09,040 --> 00:28:11,822 and all the vain pleasures of this world... 220 00:28:12,272 --> 00:28:15,239 in order to prepare for a closer union with God? 221 00:28:15,920 --> 00:28:19,269 We are so resolved, Monsignor. 222 00:28:19,760 --> 00:28:22,924 Do you make this request of your own free will? 223 00:28:22,992 --> 00:28:24,268 -Yes. -Yes. 224 00:28:28,656 --> 00:28:31,087 May the Lord, who has begun this... 225 00:28:31,810 --> 00:28:34,943 -bring it to perfection. -Amen. 226 00:30:15,532 --> 00:30:16,961 Go, my children... 227 00:30:17,036 --> 00:30:19,938 divest yourselves of the vanity of this world. 228 00:30:20,460 --> 00:30:23,973 And receive for your bodies the habit of humility. 229 00:33:43,408 --> 00:33:47,720 Yvonne Duval will be known as Sister Marie Sebastian. 230 00:33:48,434 --> 00:33:52,842 Henrietta de la Croix will be known as Sister Marie Bernadette. 231 00:33:56,658 --> 00:34:01,131 Simone Pascin will be known as Sister Marie Christine. 232 00:34:02,226 --> 00:34:06,486 Cecile de Planer will be known as Sister Marie Joseph. 233 00:34:11,365 --> 00:34:15,194 Gabrielle Van der Mal will be known as Sister Luke. 234 00:34:36,598 --> 00:34:39,151 Sister, you make a beautiful nun. 235 00:34:45,463 --> 00:34:46,608 Sister. 236 00:35:06,217 --> 00:35:07,744 You're blushing. 237 00:35:08,137 --> 00:35:10,526 It happened to me, too, in my ward. 238 00:35:10,825 --> 00:35:13,192 We shouldn't blush, I'm sure we shouldn't. 239 00:35:13,258 --> 00:35:14,950 How can we help it? 240 00:35:15,473 --> 00:35:18,167 It must mean some wrong awareness of self. 241 00:35:19,100 --> 00:35:21,467 Must we write it in our notebooks? 242 00:35:22,652 --> 00:35:24,059 I don't know. 243 00:35:24,348 --> 00:35:26,836 Should we write that we talked alone? 244 00:35:32,411 --> 00:35:34,004 I always start it. 245 00:35:45,550 --> 00:35:49,031 Your training as a postulant has been mostly in externals. 246 00:35:49,359 --> 00:35:51,944 Now, as novices, you will be devoting the next year... 247 00:35:52,014 --> 00:35:54,218 to the real formation of a nun. 248 00:35:54,350 --> 00:35:57,766 During that entire year, none of you will leave the Mother House. 249 00:35:58,286 --> 00:36:01,898 We will pay particular attention to the removal of faults... 250 00:36:02,158 --> 00:36:05,438 the control of passions, and the acquiring of virtue... 251 00:36:05,504 --> 00:36:07,806 so that you may be born again in Christ. 252 00:36:07,969 --> 00:36:11,962 We will have exercises to develop charity, forbearance, and humility... 253 00:36:12,032 --> 00:36:14,367 and tests to destroy love of self. 254 00:36:15,360 --> 00:36:18,426 Two of these tests are the culpa and the penance. 255 00:36:20,289 --> 00:36:22,710 From now on, in addition to writing in your notebooks... 256 00:36:22,784 --> 00:36:24,126 you will once a week... 257 00:36:24,193 --> 00:36:27,750 proclaim before your sisters your external faults against the Rule. 258 00:36:27,821 --> 00:36:31,625 And you will be given a penance to perform in refectory or in chapel. 259 00:36:32,755 --> 00:36:36,749 The degree of humiliation will tell you how much pride is still alive in you. 260 00:36:37,588 --> 00:36:40,108 Only as your pride slowly crumble... 261 00:36:40,308 --> 00:36:42,991 will you get the first glimpse of true humility. 262 00:36:43,860 --> 00:36:46,348 If any sister has observed you in an external fault... 263 00:36:46,420 --> 00:36:47,827 which you have not proclaimed... 264 00:36:47,892 --> 00:36:49,714 it is her duty to proclaim you in charity... 265 00:36:49,780 --> 00:36:53,027 so that you may be aware of your errors and correct them. 266 00:36:53,446 --> 00:36:57,886 I say my culpa for speaking without necessity, for being late for chapel... 267 00:36:57,958 --> 00:37:00,260 for letting a door slam without penance. 268 00:37:04,582 --> 00:37:06,851 What do you have to say in charity? 269 00:37:06,918 --> 00:37:10,912 I proclaim my sister for giving in to the temptation of vanity... 270 00:37:11,110 --> 00:37:13,761 by looking at herself in a glass window. 271 00:37:16,856 --> 00:37:19,474 You will say three Hail Marys in refectory... 272 00:37:19,544 --> 00:37:22,294 for the sister who had the charity to proclaim you. 273 00:37:22,488 --> 00:37:25,303 And three Hail Marys for each imperfection. 274 00:37:25,880 --> 00:37:28,728 And pray God to help you to perfect yourself. 275 00:37:31,224 --> 00:37:34,519 Mother, I will try to correct myself with the grace of God. 276 00:37:44,139 --> 00:37:47,139 I say my culpa for breaking the rule of obedience... 277 00:37:47,210 --> 00:37:49,927 by not stopping work when I heard the bell. 278 00:37:50,059 --> 00:37:53,026 For having spilled milk twice in the refectory. 279 00:37:53,226 --> 00:37:56,642 For having spoken without necessity during Grand Silence. 280 00:38:02,861 --> 00:38:05,178 What have you to say in charity? 281 00:38:16,572 --> 00:38:19,442 I proclaim myself and Sister Luke... 282 00:38:19,517 --> 00:38:21,818 for seeking each other's company. 283 00:38:25,052 --> 00:38:28,682 You will ask God to help you to overcome this attachment... 284 00:38:29,519 --> 00:38:33,577 and you will kiss the feet of the nuns and beg your bread in refectory. 285 00:38:39,375 --> 00:38:43,237 Mother, I will try to correct myself with the grace of God. 286 00:39:51,430 --> 00:39:52,805 Dear Lord... 287 00:39:53,190 --> 00:39:55,873 the more I try, the more imperfect I become. 288 00:39:56,551 --> 00:39:59,933 I seem to fail in charity, humility, and obedience. 289 00:40:01,030 --> 00:40:03,461 Pride has not been burned out of me. 290 00:40:05,496 --> 00:40:07,668 When I succeed in obeying the Rule... 291 00:40:07,737 --> 00:40:11,282 I fail at the same time because I have pride in succeeding. 292 00:40:24,921 --> 00:40:28,452 Tomorrow you go on retreat before taking the first vows, don't you? 293 00:40:28,652 --> 00:40:30,987 The Grand Silence doesn't matter for me. 294 00:40:31,052 --> 00:40:33,474 I'm not taking my vows. I'm leaving. 295 00:40:34,413 --> 00:40:37,991 So I can talk without having to say a culpa or do a penance. 296 00:40:40,268 --> 00:40:41,283 Why? 297 00:40:41,997 --> 00:40:45,226 Mother Emmanuel said, "Remember, you can cheat us... 298 00:40:45,292 --> 00:40:47,877 "but you cannot cheat yourself or God." 299 00:40:49,036 --> 00:40:51,732 Well, to go on would be cheating God. 300 00:40:52,671 --> 00:40:55,704 -To be a hypocrite. -We all have our doubts. 301 00:40:56,318 --> 00:40:58,260 -My confessor-- -Of course. 302 00:40:58,623 --> 00:41:00,216 But I know myself. 303 00:41:01,342 --> 00:41:03,252 I could never be like you. 304 00:41:03,614 --> 00:41:05,207 As strong as you. 305 00:41:06,622 --> 00:41:08,531 I'm the weakest of us all. 306 00:41:08,606 --> 00:41:11,541 If you were, you would not be taking your vows. 307 00:41:13,246 --> 00:41:17,126 Now I've earned you another penance by talking to you in the Grand Silence. 308 00:41:17,200 --> 00:41:18,509 I'm sorry. 309 00:41:20,209 --> 00:41:21,453 Goodbye. 310 00:41:24,721 --> 00:41:26,063 Pray for me. 311 00:41:59,587 --> 00:42:03,393 "I, Gabrielle Van der Mal, known as Sister Luke... 312 00:42:03,761 --> 00:42:07,660 "promise to God in the presence of Your Grace and our Reverend Mother... 313 00:42:07,893 --> 00:42:10,763 "to obey the Holy Rule of this congregation... 314 00:42:10,933 --> 00:42:15,276 "and to persevere in the life of obedience, chastity, and poverty... 315 00:42:15,541 --> 00:42:18,705 "for the period of three years. Amen." 316 00:43:38,543 --> 00:43:42,618 Sister Luke, this is the discipline for penance in private. 317 00:43:43,071 --> 00:43:47,446 You will use it twice each week at night while you are saying the Miserere. 318 00:43:48,543 --> 00:43:51,609 Remember, it is essentially a symbol of penance. 319 00:43:52,031 --> 00:43:54,900 Too much is as bad as too little. 320 00:43:56,318 --> 00:43:59,614 Don't forget you are only an instrument. 321 00:44:00,319 --> 00:44:04,647 In yourself you are nothing, until you are lifted up. 322 00:44:07,761 --> 00:44:11,722 Tomorrow you will leave for the School of Tropical Medicine in Antwerp. 323 00:44:36,165 --> 00:44:37,441 Excuse me. 324 00:44:48,100 --> 00:44:50,976 Your father's daughter. Excellent. 325 00:45:03,990 --> 00:45:05,299 Excuse me. 326 00:45:17,481 --> 00:45:18,561 Well. 327 00:45:21,769 --> 00:45:24,355 Sister Pauline, how long were you in the Congo? 328 00:45:24,585 --> 00:45:25,697 Seven years. 329 00:45:25,769 --> 00:45:28,071 You worked quite a lot with the lepers, didn't you? 330 00:45:28,137 --> 00:45:29,381 -Yes. -Yes! 331 00:45:29,481 --> 00:45:32,710 Well, that is the bacillus which causes leprosy! 332 00:45:33,769 --> 00:45:35,361 Thank you, Doctor. 333 00:45:39,379 --> 00:45:42,965 I, too, have lost some of my quickness, my memory... 334 00:45:43,835 --> 00:45:45,744 from too much Congo sun. 335 00:45:46,811 --> 00:45:48,371 Too much quinine. 336 00:45:49,082 --> 00:45:53,555 If any of you think that the Congo that you'll find today in 1930... 337 00:45:53,627 --> 00:45:57,686 is anything like the Congo that we found when we went there 20 years ago... 338 00:45:57,755 --> 00:45:59,511 you will be mistaken. 339 00:46:02,591 --> 00:46:06,249 There are now bicycle paths through the brush. 340 00:46:10,989 --> 00:46:13,804 Close that window, somebody, will you? There. 341 00:46:15,085 --> 00:46:19,340 I know you think it's hot. Wait till you've had your share of malaria. 342 00:46:21,197 --> 00:46:24,361 Don't be selfish, Sister Luke, help your sisters. 343 00:46:26,642 --> 00:46:29,503 She was brought up looking through a microscope, you know... 344 00:46:30,207 --> 00:46:33,273 whilst most of you were playing with kaleidoscopes. 345 00:46:35,167 --> 00:46:38,648 Sister Luke, would you help me with this? 346 00:46:52,434 --> 00:46:55,216 That is the bacille de Koch that causes tuberculosis. 347 00:46:55,281 --> 00:46:58,577 -I thought it was the leprosy bacillus. -They are very alike. 348 00:46:58,642 --> 00:47:01,063 Both rod-shaped, both acid-fast... 349 00:47:01,490 --> 00:47:05,320 both with a slight shadow almost like an enclosing capsule. 350 00:47:06,130 --> 00:47:07,821 But if you look very closely... 351 00:47:07,890 --> 00:47:11,884 you'll see that the leprosy bacillus is slightly fatter and longer. 352 00:48:02,975 --> 00:48:04,130 Enter. 353 00:48:25,514 --> 00:48:27,764 I'm in trouble, Reverend Mother. 354 00:48:28,156 --> 00:48:29,847 It's Sister Pauline. 355 00:48:29,980 --> 00:48:34,039 My conscience is not at peace because of my unfriendly feelings towards her. 356 00:48:35,837 --> 00:48:39,132 At the Mother House, we were told to overcome feelings like this... 357 00:48:39,196 --> 00:48:41,051 by trying to help the person. 358 00:48:41,180 --> 00:48:44,476 For five months I've tried to help Sister Pauline in the courses. 359 00:48:44,540 --> 00:48:45,947 She needs help. 360 00:48:46,716 --> 00:48:48,887 But she will not permit friendship... 361 00:48:49,437 --> 00:48:51,392 and so I do not know what to do. 362 00:48:51,563 --> 00:48:53,771 Sister Pauline has already come to me. 363 00:48:54,127 --> 00:48:56,265 The feeling you describe is mutual. 364 00:48:57,231 --> 00:48:59,336 She thinks you are full of pride. 365 00:48:59,823 --> 00:49:02,823 She does not believe that you can ever achieve humility. 366 00:49:05,103 --> 00:49:08,299 I'm ashamed, My Mother, for her and for me. 367 00:49:09,678 --> 00:49:12,264 All this sounds very childish when you tell it. 368 00:49:12,367 --> 00:49:15,060 Her dislike, I believe, is based on fear. 369 00:49:15,420 --> 00:49:18,905 She worries that she will not be able to pass the examination. 370 00:49:18,977 --> 00:49:22,360 Or if she does, that she will be far below you in grade. 371 00:49:22,881 --> 00:49:26,558 This could easily mean that she could not return to the Congo. 372 00:49:28,225 --> 00:49:32,055 You have been given a truly great opportunity to make a sacrifice for God. 373 00:49:32,289 --> 00:49:34,329 You asked what you might do? 374 00:49:36,129 --> 00:49:37,853 Would you, Sister Luke... 375 00:49:37,923 --> 00:49:41,038 be able to fail your examination to show humility? 376 00:49:55,380 --> 00:49:56,721 My Mother... 377 00:50:00,243 --> 00:50:04,156 I would be willing if the Mother House knows of this and approves. 378 00:50:04,230 --> 00:50:07,296 Then it would be a humility with hooks, as we say. 379 00:50:07,557 --> 00:50:10,874 A humility that takes something back for the sacrifice. 380 00:50:11,110 --> 00:50:15,201 In this case, the satisfaction of knowing that the Mother House knows. 381 00:50:15,333 --> 00:50:17,668 -Courage needs witnesses. -Yes. 382 00:50:18,086 --> 00:50:19,842 Real humility, on the other hand... 383 00:50:19,910 --> 00:50:22,331 passes unperceived between God and the soul. 384 00:50:22,630 --> 00:50:25,762 You have heard our phrase, "Do good and disappear." 385 00:50:27,895 --> 00:50:30,230 How do we know when we are humble? 386 00:50:30,776 --> 00:50:33,296 When we can accept a real humiliation. 387 00:50:33,687 --> 00:50:35,411 Such as this failure. 388 00:50:40,536 --> 00:50:43,056 How can I know God wants this from me? 389 00:50:43,448 --> 00:50:44,909 Go and ask Him. 390 00:50:45,272 --> 00:50:49,428 But remember, you are weighing an opportunity that may never come again. 391 00:50:49,495 --> 00:50:51,418 Out of His eternal time... 392 00:50:51,494 --> 00:50:54,531 God chooses His moment to offer the most perfect alliance... 393 00:50:54,602 --> 00:50:56,544 with each individual soul. 394 00:51:04,618 --> 00:51:07,400 -Good morning, Sister Luke. -Good morning, Doctor. 395 00:51:08,522 --> 00:51:12,614 I promised I would call your father immediately after the examination. 396 00:51:14,772 --> 00:51:18,043 I shall defer to my eminent colleagues for the first question. 397 00:51:19,645 --> 00:51:22,841 Sister, the board would like to hear from you... 398 00:51:23,229 --> 00:51:26,971 in what parts of the tsetse fly will the trypanosomes be found. 399 00:51:39,500 --> 00:51:42,024 You may take your time with this question, Sister. 400 00:51:42,095 --> 00:51:44,910 We have been working on them since the 1880s. 401 00:51:54,768 --> 00:51:56,906 They will be found in the.... 402 00:51:59,887 --> 00:52:02,578 Perhaps you'd like the question repeated? 403 00:52:11,106 --> 00:52:13,561 In the tsetse fly, the trypanosomes will be found... 404 00:52:13,634 --> 00:52:16,503 in the gut, mouth parts, and salivary glands... 405 00:52:16,577 --> 00:52:19,032 in all of which sites they multiply. 406 00:52:20,738 --> 00:52:24,993 We would like to hear a r¨¦sum¨¦ of the special clinical types of pernicious... 407 00:52:25,058 --> 00:52:28,110 as differentiated from chronic or latent malaria. 408 00:52:28,276 --> 00:52:32,171 Cerebral, algid, bilious remittent fever, blackwater fever... 409 00:52:32,245 --> 00:52:34,187 and bronchopneumonic form. 410 00:52:47,733 --> 00:52:49,107 I have good news. 411 00:52:49,173 --> 00:52:52,508 All four of our sisters have passed their examinations. 412 00:52:56,263 --> 00:52:59,013 Sister Pauline will return to the Congo. 413 00:52:59,655 --> 00:53:01,957 Sisters Timothy and Ellen... 414 00:53:02,375 --> 00:53:04,317 will go to the Congo, too. 415 00:53:05,062 --> 00:53:07,429 Sister Luke will leave tomorrow morning... 416 00:53:07,495 --> 00:53:11,324 to join the nursing staff of our mental sanatorium near Brussels. 417 00:53:22,362 --> 00:53:25,907 Perhaps Reverend Mother feels you are not yet ready for the Congo. 418 00:53:26,554 --> 00:53:29,652 You must learn to accept with love whatever comes to you. 419 00:53:29,721 --> 00:53:32,056 It is essential in religious life. 420 00:53:32,666 --> 00:53:35,055 You passed fourth in a class of 80. 421 00:54:19,582 --> 00:54:22,517 Everything they do is to be accepted as normal. 422 00:54:24,766 --> 00:54:27,081 Sister Agnes, Sister Luke. 423 00:54:27,728 --> 00:54:30,030 Good morning, Mother Christoph. 424 00:54:34,064 --> 00:54:36,520 Our practical nurses stand a four-hour shift. 425 00:54:36,944 --> 00:54:40,873 Our sisters take unlimited duty, sometimes from eight to 10 hours. 426 00:54:48,017 --> 00:54:51,195 These are the cells for our most dangerous patients. 427 00:54:56,450 --> 00:54:58,839 We try to approach even our most dangerous cases... 428 00:54:58,914 --> 00:55:01,434 with gentle and persuasive reasoning. 429 00:55:05,570 --> 00:55:09,727 Sister Berthold, this is Sister Luke, who is to be with us for a while. 430 00:55:09,860 --> 00:55:11,714 -Sister Berthold. -Sister Luke. 431 00:55:15,283 --> 00:55:17,741 This one thinks that she is the Archangel Gabriel. 432 00:55:17,814 --> 00:55:19,505 So we call her that. 433 00:55:21,557 --> 00:55:23,499 Good afternoon, Archangel. 434 00:55:33,653 --> 00:55:36,109 She's a schizophrenic and very dangerous. 435 00:55:36,181 --> 00:55:40,575 She has perfectly sane periods when she talks intelligently about her farm. 436 00:55:41,031 --> 00:55:44,097 A sister is forbidden to open the door of any of these cells... 437 00:55:44,167 --> 00:55:47,910 unless there is another sister with her. Or a practical helper. 438 00:55:48,520 --> 00:55:51,902 One ought to be able to get through to someone like her. 439 00:55:54,408 --> 00:55:57,255 -Hello. -Hello, Archangel. 440 00:55:59,336 --> 00:56:02,861 This is the room where we give the treatment for the violent cases. 441 00:56:03,416 --> 00:56:06,069 We keep them four to eight hours in baths... 442 00:56:06,138 --> 00:56:08,309 maintained at a constant temperature. 443 00:56:10,874 --> 00:56:13,459 The sound that you hear are their heels... 444 00:56:13,785 --> 00:56:15,957 beating up and down against the tubs. 445 00:56:16,218 --> 00:56:17,592 Sister Marie is on duty. 446 00:56:17,658 --> 00:56:20,920 She generally remains there from eight to 10 hours at a time. 447 00:56:41,069 --> 00:56:42,411 Sister Luke. 448 00:57:46,036 --> 00:57:48,011 It isn't one of my pleasantest duties... 449 00:57:48,084 --> 00:57:50,801 opening and reading other people's letters, but... 450 00:57:50,995 --> 00:57:53,614 sometimes it does allow me to help them. 451 00:57:53,844 --> 00:57:56,778 As you see, your father asks an angry question. 452 00:57:57,428 --> 00:58:00,505 Why should you waste all these months of your time here... 453 00:58:00,575 --> 00:58:03,681 after your strenuous courses in tropical medicine? 454 00:58:04,006 --> 00:58:06,210 I must apologize for my father. 455 00:58:07,174 --> 00:58:09,346 Your father's a very great man. 456 00:58:09,414 --> 00:58:11,202 But I don't think he understands... 457 00:58:11,270 --> 00:58:15,427 that the colonies are only for sisters perfected in the religious life. 458 00:58:16,390 --> 00:58:19,586 He asks what you could possibly learn in this place. 459 00:58:19,815 --> 00:58:23,881 When I'm permitted to write to him I will tell him what I can learn here: 460 00:58:23,950 --> 00:58:25,235 obedience. 461 00:58:27,992 --> 00:58:30,960 Perhaps that's what Mother Emmanuel had in mind. 462 00:58:31,416 --> 00:58:34,286 That this would make an excellent proving ground. 463 00:58:34,360 --> 00:58:35,702 I shall try. 464 00:58:36,536 --> 00:58:38,446 And I shall try with you... 465 00:58:38,681 --> 00:58:41,681 since your soul is in my care while you are here. 466 00:58:41,753 --> 00:58:43,760 Thank you, Reverend Mother. 467 00:59:44,048 --> 00:59:47,343 -Yes? -I am so thirsty. 468 00:59:48,592 --> 00:59:51,014 May I have a drink of water, please? 469 00:59:54,224 --> 00:59:55,817 A terrible thirst. 470 00:59:56,528 --> 00:59:58,317 The fish was so salty. 471 01:01:11,599 --> 01:01:12,817 Oh, God. 472 01:01:14,970 --> 01:01:16,180 God. 473 01:01:43,757 --> 01:01:44,705 Oh, God. 474 01:02:09,822 --> 01:02:11,229 The Archangel. 475 01:02:17,919 --> 01:02:20,788 Pride. Pride and disobedience. 476 01:02:22,751 --> 01:02:24,222 Always disobedience. 477 01:02:24,298 --> 01:02:27,949 Don't try to talk. I would probably have done the same thing. 478 01:02:30,448 --> 01:02:34,988 I accuse myself also of pride in thinking I could handle the Archangel myself. 479 01:02:35,504 --> 01:02:39,912 I accuse myself of using personal judgment in not ringing the bell for help. 480 01:02:40,881 --> 01:02:43,248 I accuse myself of a sense of heroism. 481 01:02:44,049 --> 01:02:46,865 Mother, in the three days I've been lying in the infirmary... 482 01:02:46,931 --> 01:02:49,729 I have accused myself of almost every possible imperfection... 483 01:02:49,795 --> 01:02:51,388 against the Holy Rule. 484 01:02:51,459 --> 01:02:53,696 They are always such glaring faults. 485 01:02:53,763 --> 01:02:55,650 At the School of Tropical Medicine... 486 01:02:55,715 --> 01:02:59,130 Mother Marcella offered me the chance to show true humility... 487 01:02:59,203 --> 01:03:01,887 -by failing an examination. -I know. 488 01:03:03,427 --> 01:03:05,369 Mother Marcella means well... 489 01:03:05,443 --> 01:03:08,739 but she was very wrong to make that suggestion to you. 490 01:03:09,700 --> 01:03:14,126 My child, I don't underestimate for a moment the seriousness of your faults. 491 01:03:14,774 --> 01:03:18,484 But you mustn't destroy yourself with guilt and remorse. 492 01:03:19,318 --> 01:03:22,100 You must learn to bend a little or you'll break. 493 01:03:22,167 --> 01:03:25,483 Long before I entered the order, I had a rule of my own: 494 01:03:25,558 --> 01:03:27,019 All or nothing. 495 01:03:28,694 --> 01:03:30,832 I want to be a good nun or.... 496 01:03:31,094 --> 01:03:33,516 You will be a good nun, Sister Luke. 497 01:03:36,193 --> 01:03:39,517 I thought one would reach some sort of resting place... 498 01:03:40,169 --> 01:03:43,551 where obedience would be natural and struggle would end. 499 01:03:45,577 --> 01:03:47,813 There is no resting place. Ever. 500 01:03:48,361 --> 01:03:50,782 But you must have patience with yourself. 501 01:03:50,856 --> 01:03:53,573 Unhappy saints are lost from the beginning. 502 01:03:53,865 --> 01:03:56,199 Ask for God's help and guidance... 503 01:03:56,264 --> 01:03:58,632 and I know you will make your final vows. 504 01:04:04,506 --> 01:04:06,132 "I, Sister Luke... 505 01:04:06,203 --> 01:04:10,327 "promise to God in the presence of Your Grace and of our Reverend Mother... 506 01:04:10,395 --> 01:04:13,013 "to persevere in the life of obedience... 507 01:04:13,179 --> 01:04:15,001 "chastity, and poverty... 508 01:04:15,322 --> 01:04:17,297 "until death. Amen." 509 01:04:20,459 --> 01:04:22,085 I declare you from today... 510 01:04:22,156 --> 01:04:25,074 the bride of Jesus Christ, Son of Almighty God. 511 01:04:38,814 --> 01:04:40,374 I declare you from today... 512 01:04:40,446 --> 01:04:43,381 the bride of Jesus Christ, Son of Almighty God. 513 01:04:44,703 --> 01:04:49,259 -Mother, pray for me. -My daughter, may God give you peace. 514 01:05:33,091 --> 01:05:35,103 Don't be proud of me, Father. 515 01:05:35,176 --> 01:05:36,975 This is really flight. 516 01:05:37,107 --> 01:05:40,852 It will be so much easier in the Congo to remember I'm nothing. 517 01:05:40,917 --> 01:05:45,521 There will be no worldly associations in a bush station, in the jungle. 518 01:06:13,543 --> 01:06:15,845 Please, God, let me do some good. 519 01:08:05,955 --> 01:08:07,843 Where's Mother Mathilde? 520 01:08:08,515 --> 01:08:11,199 We are very fortunate in Mother Mathilde. 521 01:08:14,627 --> 01:08:16,667 -Mama Augustine. -Kalulu. 522 01:08:16,867 --> 01:08:20,097 -Welcome home, Mama Augustine. -It's good to be back. 523 01:08:21,636 --> 01:08:24,365 Ilunga. This is Sister Luke. 524 01:08:25,012 --> 01:08:26,509 This is Kalulu. 525 01:08:26,678 --> 01:08:28,588 He practically runs the convent. 526 01:08:29,751 --> 01:08:32,369 Sister Augustine. Welcome back. 527 01:08:33,367 --> 01:08:34,577 Welcome. 528 01:08:38,743 --> 01:08:40,848 -This is Sister Aurelie. -Sister. 529 01:08:40,918 --> 01:08:41,933 Sister Luke. 530 01:08:42,007 --> 01:08:45,901 Now, a short boat trip across the Congo and you're home. 531 01:09:03,113 --> 01:09:04,902 And there's the Congo. 532 01:09:59,155 --> 01:10:01,753 Drums tell your arrival, Mama Augustine. 533 01:10:01,824 --> 01:10:03,613 Yours, too, Mama Luke. 534 01:10:09,727 --> 01:10:12,062 What are the drums saying, Kalulu? 535 01:10:14,015 --> 01:10:16,404 Mama Augustine, she can read drums. 536 01:10:43,756 --> 01:10:44,809 Sister Luke.... 537 01:10:44,882 --> 01:10:48,504 I thought it might amuse you to know what the drums said about you last night. 538 01:10:48,572 --> 01:10:51,322 The way Kalulu laughed, it must be something very funny. 539 01:10:51,388 --> 01:10:52,533 They said: 540 01:10:52,604 --> 01:10:55,419 "Held hands with Big Mama Mathilde on way back to Sister House... 541 01:10:55,484 --> 01:10:58,713 "therefore esteemed. Talks little, looks much. 542 01:10:59,036 --> 01:11:01,273 "Young enough to bear children." 543 01:11:12,623 --> 01:11:14,445 We call her the Novice. 544 01:11:15,695 --> 01:11:19,524 But like all little novices, she's still imperfect in discipline. 545 01:11:21,040 --> 01:11:24,782 Come along with me now on my rounds. We'll start with the native hospital. 546 01:11:24,847 --> 01:11:27,530 How we've needed this extra pair of hands. 547 01:12:04,660 --> 01:12:06,896 "Yambo"means hello. But of course you know that. 548 01:12:06,963 --> 01:12:08,425 -You've been studying. -Yes. 549 01:12:10,260 --> 01:12:12,845 -Mama Luke. -Yambo, Mama Luke. 550 01:12:13,235 --> 01:12:16,651 Only one generation ago, their fathers were savages in the forest. 551 01:12:16,724 --> 01:12:18,829 We couldn't run the hospital without them. 552 01:12:18,900 --> 01:12:21,178 You'll notice we haven't converted them all yet. 553 01:12:21,246 --> 01:12:24,899 Some still wear the witch doctor's fetish around their necks. 554 01:12:29,671 --> 01:12:32,037 That is our surgeon, Dr. Fortunati. 555 01:12:32,103 --> 01:12:34,110 He spends half his time here. 556 01:12:34,183 --> 01:12:37,052 The rest of the day he operates in the white hospital. 557 01:12:56,601 --> 01:12:58,936 I'm afraid she's too fast for me... 558 01:12:59,001 --> 01:13:01,586 but nursing them every day, I'll learn. 559 01:13:13,867 --> 01:13:16,453 I see our chaplain, Father Andre, is here. 560 01:13:16,555 --> 01:13:17,832 He is greatly loved. 561 01:13:17,899 --> 01:13:20,419 Even the non-Catholics hold their children up to him... 562 01:13:20,491 --> 01:13:22,596 to be blessed when he passes. 563 01:13:22,604 --> 01:13:23,814 Father Andre... 564 01:13:23,883 --> 01:13:25,956 you have a new soul to look after. 565 01:13:26,028 --> 01:13:27,915 -Sister Luke. -Sister. 566 01:13:27,979 --> 01:13:29,921 -Father. -We're so glad you are here. 567 01:13:29,995 --> 01:13:32,106 We do need another pair of hands. 568 01:13:32,177 --> 01:13:34,840 The barber's been itching to get at that beard for years... 569 01:13:34,909 --> 01:13:37,113 but the natives have a picture of God with a beard... 570 01:13:37,181 --> 01:13:39,570 so priests have to wear beards in the Congo. 571 01:13:39,646 --> 01:13:42,679 No beard, no converts. Excuse me, please. 572 01:14:23,219 --> 01:14:27,343 We're only beginning to persuade them to come to hospital to have their babies. 573 01:14:27,411 --> 01:14:29,516 Not all of them trust us, yet. 574 01:14:29,587 --> 01:14:32,587 Many of them still prefer to deliver themselves in the bush. 575 01:14:32,659 --> 01:14:35,081 They scoop out a hole and that's it. 576 01:14:42,270 --> 01:14:45,063 That's how they call our children to school. 577 01:16:26,428 --> 01:16:27,802 -Sister. -Sister. 578 01:16:27,868 --> 01:16:31,348 Sister is teaching the mothers how to wash their children. 579 01:16:33,436 --> 01:16:35,825 You know, I had hoped to go to the bush station... 580 01:16:35,900 --> 01:16:38,966 but seeing all of this, I'm very happy to be here. 581 01:16:39,996 --> 01:16:42,417 But Mother Emmanuel sent you a cable, didn't she? 582 01:16:42,492 --> 01:16:44,354 Yes, that I was to be here with you. 583 01:16:44,420 --> 01:16:47,627 With us, yes, but not at the native hospital. 584 01:16:48,238 --> 01:16:51,718 Across the way, at the white hospital, with the Europeans. 585 01:17:14,464 --> 01:17:17,813 One of the nurses here got TB and we had to send her home. 586 01:17:17,888 --> 01:17:20,856 TB makes further service in the Congo impossible... 587 01:17:20,928 --> 01:17:23,317 so you'll have to hold down two jobs over there. 588 01:17:23,392 --> 01:17:26,523 Supervising the nurses and assisting Dr. Fortunati. 589 01:17:28,576 --> 01:17:29,918 I'm sorry... 590 01:17:30,496 --> 01:17:33,192 but it's a lesson we all have to learn, isn't it? 591 01:17:33,549 --> 01:17:35,081 Disappointments. 592 01:17:35,411 --> 01:17:37,069 We'll go there now. 593 01:17:54,578 --> 01:17:57,045 -Good morning, Mama Mathilde. -Ilunga, this is Sister Luke. 594 01:17:57,118 --> 01:17:58,236 -Good morning. -Good morning. 595 01:17:58,309 --> 01:18:01,091 Ilunga will be your deputy here at the hospital. 596 01:18:01,156 --> 01:18:02,236 Good. 597 01:18:21,329 --> 01:18:24,018 You will be assisting Dr. Fortunati here. 598 01:18:24,471 --> 01:18:26,991 He is a genius and a devil. 599 01:18:27,575 --> 01:18:29,909 He works himself to exhaustion... 600 01:18:29,975 --> 01:18:31,665 and his nurses, too. 601 01:18:32,215 --> 01:18:34,549 I'm used to doctors. My father.... 602 01:18:36,407 --> 01:18:38,032 I'm sorry, I forgot. 603 01:18:38,102 --> 01:18:41,102 Your father is a great surgeon. I know. 604 01:18:42,294 --> 01:18:45,538 You must always leave surgery the moment operations are over. 605 01:18:45,605 --> 01:18:47,878 You must never linger to discuss a case. 606 01:18:47,945 --> 01:18:50,847 You will be tempted to because he is a marvel. 607 01:18:51,241 --> 01:18:53,543 But remember, he is also a man... 608 01:18:53,609 --> 01:18:54,853 a bachelor... 609 01:18:54,921 --> 01:18:57,026 and I'm afraid an unbeliever. 610 01:18:57,193 --> 01:19:01,503 Don't ever think for an instant, Sister, that your habit will protect you. 611 01:19:02,601 --> 01:19:05,417 Now, I leave you to look over your equipment. 612 01:19:06,602 --> 01:19:07,950 Yes, Mother. 613 01:20:06,689 --> 01:20:10,366 You will say six A ves and a Pater Noster for that bit of vanity, Sister. 614 01:20:10,433 --> 01:20:13,303 I'm Dr. Fortunati. You must be the new sister. 615 01:20:14,017 --> 01:20:16,505 -Yes, I'm Sister Luke. -How do you do? 616 01:20:17,121 --> 01:20:19,942 -How do you do? -Well, the drums were right. 617 01:20:21,454 --> 01:20:24,046 I see somebody told you what they said. 618 01:20:24,755 --> 01:20:27,374 I believe I'm to assist you in the operating room, Doctor. 619 01:20:27,444 --> 01:20:28,589 Yes. 620 01:20:28,660 --> 01:20:31,049 I hope you bear up longer than the last sister. 621 01:20:31,124 --> 01:20:32,650 I can only try. 622 01:20:33,716 --> 01:20:37,164 These summer months this room gets like a bake-oven by 9:00 in the morning... 623 01:20:37,235 --> 01:20:40,399 so I operate at 5:00. That means you get up at 4:00. 624 01:20:40,820 --> 01:20:42,227 I'll be here. 625 01:20:42,324 --> 01:20:45,306 And sometimes I operate right through the time of your mass. 626 01:20:45,379 --> 01:20:47,357 So you'll get used to taking communion... 627 01:20:47,430 --> 01:20:49,699 at that door there, on those occasions. 628 01:20:49,766 --> 01:20:51,871 I'll have to ask permission of Reverend Mother. 629 01:20:51,942 --> 01:20:54,942 Reverend Mother is not in charge here. This is a government hospital. 630 01:20:55,014 --> 01:20:57,348 -Still, I'll-- -You're paid by the government... 631 01:20:57,415 --> 01:20:59,804 and therefore, you're responsible to them. 632 01:20:59,878 --> 01:21:02,115 They don't pay you to pray, but to assist me. 633 01:21:02,182 --> 01:21:03,905 -I understand that. -It's all right. 634 01:21:03,975 --> 01:21:06,594 The Reverend Mother's given permission to the operating sisters. 635 01:21:06,665 --> 01:21:10,936 I can't have my nurses running off to mass in the middle of an operation. 636 01:21:11,608 --> 01:21:13,299 5:00 in the morning? 637 01:21:13,433 --> 01:21:15,854 Have you ever assisted at an operation before? 638 01:21:15,929 --> 01:21:18,798 Yes. My father's Dr. Hubert Van der Mal. 639 01:21:20,088 --> 01:21:21,365 I see. 640 01:21:21,529 --> 01:21:23,503 You'll say another five A ves and beg your soup... 641 01:21:23,576 --> 01:21:25,943 for that little display of pride, Sister. 642 01:21:58,269 --> 01:21:59,959 These boys had better be trained to do... 643 01:22:00,029 --> 01:22:01,972 more than just stand around dropping things. 644 01:22:02,045 --> 01:22:04,347 Yes, Doctor, I'll work with them. 645 01:22:04,509 --> 01:22:05,687 Tighter. 646 01:22:12,253 --> 01:22:14,042 Don't you faint on me. 647 01:22:15,005 --> 01:22:16,183 I won't. 648 01:22:17,149 --> 01:22:19,259 I asked Mother Mathilde to let the operating sister... 649 01:22:19,330 --> 01:22:22,027 have something to eat before she came in the morning, but she won't. 650 01:22:22,095 --> 01:22:24,005 -So if you faint on me-- -I won't faint, Doctor... 651 01:22:24,079 --> 01:22:27,375 if you promise not to eat garlic again the night before an operation. 652 01:22:28,975 --> 01:22:30,437 All right, I promise. 653 01:22:34,864 --> 01:22:36,424 All right, go on. 654 01:23:15,797 --> 01:23:18,863 When you've been at this longer, I'll explain what I was doing. 655 01:23:18,933 --> 01:23:21,104 Your being the daughter of Dr. Van der Mal... 656 01:23:21,173 --> 01:23:23,082 I expect you could instruct me. 657 01:23:23,861 --> 01:23:26,676 Please don't mention my father again, Doctor. 658 01:23:52,359 --> 01:23:54,533 -Good morning, Reverend Mother. -Good morning. 659 01:23:54,602 --> 01:23:57,518 I wouldn't say their hands are as gentle as Sister Luke's... 660 01:23:57,593 --> 01:23:59,252 but then whose are? 661 01:24:01,817 --> 01:24:04,403 This is certainly a great step forward. 662 01:24:05,082 --> 01:24:09,337 I'd like to borrow Sister Luke to organize our boys in the textile mills. 663 01:24:11,898 --> 01:24:13,905 Just a moment, Sister Luke. 664 01:24:22,188 --> 01:24:25,222 I had a telephone call from the Bishop last night. 665 01:24:25,293 --> 01:24:28,326 He had read your name in the paper and heard your name on the drums... 666 01:24:28,397 --> 01:24:30,699 about making some innovations here. 667 01:24:30,765 --> 01:24:33,831 He asked me what I knew about it. I had no answer. 668 01:24:34,349 --> 01:24:37,000 It didn't occur to me to ask for permission. 669 01:24:37,069 --> 01:24:41,160 He also asked me why one of my nuns was trying to singularize herself. 670 01:24:46,814 --> 01:24:48,953 I've failed you, Reverend Mother. 671 01:24:49,023 --> 01:24:53,431 A superior must know what is happening in a hospital entrusted to her care. 672 01:24:54,750 --> 01:24:57,052 You have done something very important. 673 01:24:57,118 --> 01:24:59,573 Your only fault is in not telling me in advance... 674 01:24:59,646 --> 01:25:01,883 and saving me the embarrassment. 675 01:25:22,977 --> 01:25:24,765 -Mama Luke. -Yes, Emil? 676 01:25:25,409 --> 01:25:27,296 Where are your husbands? 677 01:25:28,417 --> 01:25:30,362 I don't understand, Emil. 678 01:25:30,438 --> 01:25:33,747 Where are the husbands of the white mamas at the house? 679 01:25:33,811 --> 01:25:35,851 Have you asked Mama Mathilde about this? 680 01:25:35,923 --> 01:25:37,865 -Yes. -What did she say? 681 01:25:38,003 --> 01:25:40,753 Something about you all being the wives of one man. 682 01:25:40,819 --> 01:25:42,542 But I know that can't be right. 683 01:25:42,611 --> 01:25:45,611 Father Andre says it's wrong to have more than one wife. 684 01:25:45,843 --> 01:25:48,047 Well, it's not easy to explain. 685 01:25:48,115 --> 01:25:52,174 I can understand some of the others not having husbands, but not you. 686 01:25:52,563 --> 01:25:54,937 The fact is, Emil, I have one. 687 01:25:55,388 --> 01:25:58,365 -Well, I thought you would. -But he's in Heaven. 688 01:25:58,533 --> 01:26:00,257 I'm sorry, Mama Luke. 689 01:26:00,549 --> 01:26:02,011 I'm very sorry. 690 01:26:19,599 --> 01:26:22,357 Can you do without me for a few days, Sister? 691 01:26:22,424 --> 01:26:25,293 -What do you mean, Doctor? -Well, I think we both need a rest. 692 01:26:25,367 --> 01:26:28,215 I'm going up to Lake Kivu for the weekend to do some fishing. 693 01:26:28,280 --> 01:26:29,327 I see. 694 01:26:29,400 --> 01:26:32,269 Give you a chance to catch up on your prayers. 695 01:26:34,680 --> 01:26:36,273 If there's an emergency? 696 01:26:36,343 --> 01:26:38,613 Well, send for one of the doctors in the town. 697 01:26:38,680 --> 01:26:40,851 Keep up the morphine with the terminal cancer. 698 01:26:40,920 --> 01:26:43,899 But don't touch the dressings on the skin graft. 699 01:26:44,904 --> 01:26:46,433 You'd better get some rest yourself. 700 01:26:46,505 --> 01:26:48,840 I've been working you pretty hard in the last few months. 701 01:26:48,906 --> 01:26:51,328 I'm all right. Have a fine weekend. 702 01:26:53,162 --> 01:26:55,050 Did you ever go fishing? 703 01:26:58,314 --> 01:27:01,828 It's impossible to talk to somebody who's not allowed to remember. 704 01:27:01,899 --> 01:27:03,492 See you on Monday. 705 01:27:41,456 --> 01:27:43,692 Sister, the mission just called. 706 01:27:44,847 --> 01:27:48,622 Father Andre has had a bad accident. They're bringing him here. 707 01:27:49,039 --> 01:27:52,039 See if you can still find Dr. Fortunati, please, Sister. 708 01:28:02,817 --> 01:28:06,046 Call one of the town doctors for surgery immediately. 709 01:28:17,186 --> 01:28:19,684 -Is the leg very bad? -It's shattered. 710 01:28:20,142 --> 01:28:22,451 The doctor will have to amputate. 711 01:28:28,821 --> 01:28:32,650 They can't reach a doctor. I left one of the boys to keep trying. 712 01:28:35,989 --> 01:28:39,731 In that case, we'll have to do the best we can to save the leg. 713 01:29:00,742 --> 01:29:05,118 I'd like to save you from the sin of pride, Sister, but I'm afraid I can't. 714 01:29:05,834 --> 01:29:08,815 This may take nearly a year to mend completely. 715 01:29:09,593 --> 01:29:12,212 But you've saved the Father and his leg. 716 01:29:19,993 --> 01:29:22,448 Mother Mathilde and Sister Aurelie assisted me. 717 01:29:22,521 --> 01:29:26,515 Yes, and all the other nuns praying for you back at the Mother House. I know. 718 01:29:26,585 --> 01:29:28,821 But you were the one who did it. 719 01:29:38,924 --> 01:29:41,924 It's a photograph of a final x-ray of Father Andre's leg. 720 01:29:41,996 --> 01:29:45,378 It's just to remind you what an excellent nurse you are. 721 01:29:47,979 --> 01:29:49,256 Mother Mathilde's making a trip... 722 01:29:49,324 --> 01:29:51,528 up the river next month to visit the bush stations. 723 01:29:51,596 --> 01:29:53,090 I'm going to send you along, too... 724 01:29:53,164 --> 01:29:56,469 to make the annual leprosy check on Father Vermeuhlen. 725 01:29:56,952 --> 01:29:59,379 -I see you don't know about him. -No. 726 01:30:00,190 --> 01:30:03,506 Well, he's known as the White Saint of the Leper Colony. 727 01:30:03,582 --> 01:30:05,175 The trip will do you good. 728 01:30:05,246 --> 01:30:07,318 And meeting Father Vermeuhlen will, too. 729 01:30:07,390 --> 01:30:10,325 Religion hasn't made him tense and disciplined. 730 01:30:13,213 --> 01:30:17,043 -A nun is a disciplined person. -Yes, but not necessarily tense. 731 01:30:17,309 --> 01:30:20,000 As a surgeon, it's not my business to probe into the mind... 732 01:30:20,070 --> 01:30:24,041 but I'd say that tension is a sign of an exhausting inner struggle. 733 01:30:28,208 --> 01:30:29,801 The Grand Silence? 734 01:30:31,760 --> 01:30:34,182 Do you realize that every time you talk to me like this... 735 01:30:34,256 --> 01:30:38,314 I should go down on my knees before my sisters and proclaim my fault? 736 01:30:42,738 --> 01:30:44,021 I'm sorry. 737 01:31:49,928 --> 01:31:51,870 There's Father Vermeuhlen. 738 01:32:00,634 --> 01:32:03,830 Father Vermeuhlen was one of the first missionaries in the Congo. 739 01:32:03,898 --> 01:32:06,102 He lived all alone in the bush. 740 01:32:06,394 --> 01:32:09,460 One day he disappeared, they thought he was dead. 741 01:32:09,754 --> 01:32:12,983 But years later they found him. Living with a native. 742 01:32:13,561 --> 01:32:15,187 As penance for his sins... 743 01:32:15,258 --> 01:32:18,806 he asked to be allowed to devote the rest of his life to the lepers. 744 01:33:41,220 --> 01:33:44,035 Well, I'll show you the rest of the station. 745 01:33:52,612 --> 01:33:55,938 It's a makeshift, but at least they're being cared for. 746 01:33:56,014 --> 01:34:00,016 If left in the forest with their tribes, they'd be abandoned to die. 747 01:34:00,310 --> 01:34:02,612 Do they realize how ill they are? 748 01:34:02,902 --> 01:34:06,066 Somehow we're all of us protected from full realization. 749 01:34:06,390 --> 01:34:08,178 How's that rascal Fortunati? 750 01:34:08,246 --> 01:34:10,635 He gave me complete instructions about you. 751 01:34:10,710 --> 01:34:12,652 All the tests I must make. 752 01:34:13,462 --> 01:34:15,567 Well, we can forget about the tests. 753 01:34:16,022 --> 01:34:20,058 I know they're a nuisance, but that is the real reason for our trip. 754 01:34:25,768 --> 01:34:28,583 He always said it was just a matter of time. 755 01:35:23,501 --> 01:35:25,923 Reverend Mother, I'm sorry to ask again... 756 01:35:25,998 --> 01:35:28,486 but may I have permission to be absent from vespers? 757 01:35:28,558 --> 01:35:30,701 There are some slides I must-- 758 01:35:31,157 --> 01:35:32,887 Thank you, Reverend Mother. 759 01:36:13,234 --> 01:36:15,569 What are we going to do about you? 760 01:36:16,818 --> 01:36:18,415 We operated at 5:00 in the morning. 761 01:36:18,486 --> 01:36:21,730 It's now after midnight and we operate again at 5:00. 762 01:36:23,270 --> 01:36:24,699 I'll be there. 763 01:36:24,998 --> 01:36:27,616 But how many more days will you be there? 764 01:36:28,453 --> 01:36:30,461 What'll I do if you're not? 765 01:36:35,365 --> 01:36:38,748 You comfort your patients by listening to their troubles. 766 01:36:38,822 --> 01:36:40,545 Who listens to yours? 767 01:36:41,991 --> 01:36:45,135 I'm responsible for the health of the patients in this hospital. 768 01:36:45,205 --> 01:36:47,117 And for your health, too. 769 01:36:47,704 --> 01:36:49,166 You go to bed. 770 01:37:40,541 --> 01:37:43,258 I don't know what to do, Doctor. I have TB. 771 01:37:44,733 --> 01:37:46,074 Who says so? 772 01:37:47,580 --> 01:37:49,173 Who told you that? 773 01:37:49,277 --> 01:37:50,870 I just made a test. 774 01:37:50,941 --> 01:37:53,307 It will mean my going back to Europe. 775 01:37:53,373 --> 01:37:56,100 But you're the only one in the whole Congo I can work with. 776 01:37:56,166 --> 01:37:57,733 I can't lose you. 777 01:38:00,719 --> 01:38:02,345 Let's have a look. 778 01:38:02,798 --> 01:38:04,773 I'm not allowed. I should call another sister. 779 01:38:04,847 --> 01:38:06,440 Let's have a look. 780 01:38:33,601 --> 01:38:34,877 I'm ready. 781 01:38:36,737 --> 01:38:39,966 You're never wrong, but let's hope this time you are. 782 01:38:47,091 --> 01:38:48,749 Take a deep breath. 783 01:38:54,259 --> 01:38:55,568 And again. 784 01:38:59,922 --> 01:39:01,264 And again. 785 01:39:05,268 --> 01:39:06,549 And again. 786 01:39:11,878 --> 01:39:13,154 Now cough. 787 01:39:14,726 --> 01:39:15,904 Breathe. 788 01:39:19,942 --> 01:39:21,055 Cough. 789 01:39:22,630 --> 01:39:23,807 Breathe. 790 01:39:33,142 --> 01:39:34,552 We're lucky, Sister. 791 01:39:34,617 --> 01:39:38,261 It's a small summit lesion, and I think we've got it in time. 792 01:39:48,249 --> 01:39:50,321 You can stand the gold treatment. 793 01:39:50,392 --> 01:39:52,661 It's a bit rough on the kidneys, but you're strong. 794 01:39:52,728 --> 01:39:54,839 I'll take the responsibility. 795 01:39:55,040 --> 01:39:57,701 -I'll have to tell Mother Mathilde. -Why? 796 01:39:58,411 --> 01:40:00,450 Obedience. I must. 797 01:40:00,555 --> 01:40:02,791 They'll send you home if you do. 798 01:40:10,058 --> 01:40:11,236 I know. 799 01:40:14,058 --> 01:40:18,252 You're afraid you won't be able to stand the convent if they send you back. 800 01:40:19,765 --> 01:40:22,141 I'm going to tell you something about yourself, Sister. 801 01:40:22,205 --> 01:40:25,271 I've never worked with any other kind of nurse except nuns since I began. 802 01:40:25,341 --> 01:40:28,637 And you're not in the mold, Sister. You never will be. 803 01:40:29,502 --> 01:40:31,574 You're what's called a worldly nun. 804 01:40:31,774 --> 01:40:34,075 ldeal for the public, ideal for the patients. 805 01:40:34,142 --> 01:40:37,371 But you see things your own way. You stick to your own ideas. 806 01:40:37,438 --> 01:40:41,431 You'll never be the kind of nun that your convent expects you to be. 807 01:40:41,503 --> 01:40:43,233 That's your illness. 808 01:40:43,366 --> 01:40:45,195 The TB is a byproduct. 809 01:40:47,664 --> 01:40:50,479 I can cure the byproduct, if you want me to. 810 01:40:51,856 --> 01:40:53,318 I want to stay. 811 01:40:54,064 --> 01:40:55,689 All right, leave it to me. 812 01:40:55,760 --> 01:40:59,437 I'll tell the Mother Superior in such a way that she can't send you home. 813 01:40:59,504 --> 01:41:01,327 We'll put you up in the little pavilion... 814 01:41:01,392 --> 01:41:03,781 where you'll be sleeping practically in the treetops. 815 01:41:03,856 --> 01:41:06,544 -How long? -Five, six months, perhaps. 816 01:41:07,288 --> 01:41:09,785 But remember, I'm only working on the byproduct. 817 01:41:09,858 --> 01:41:12,280 The main illness is for you to cure. 818 01:41:14,370 --> 01:41:15,581 I'll try. 819 01:41:18,050 --> 01:41:21,945 Anything you knew before I did, keep under your bonnet if you can. 820 01:41:25,347 --> 01:41:26,972 That is, unless your pride... 821 01:41:27,042 --> 01:41:30,625 as a genius of the microscope doesn't get the better of you. 822 01:41:32,077 --> 01:41:34,157 I'll take an x-ray in the morning. 823 01:41:53,771 --> 01:41:54,954 Come in. 824 01:41:58,775 --> 01:42:01,622 His name is Felix and Mother Mathilde said you might have him. 825 01:42:01,686 --> 01:42:02,831 Really? 826 01:42:03,927 --> 01:42:05,715 Ilunga gave him to me. 827 01:42:06,103 --> 01:42:09,332 I'd rather he'd given me that fetish from around his neck. 828 01:42:15,030 --> 01:42:18,268 This reminds me of a tree house that I had when I.... 829 01:42:26,025 --> 01:42:27,781 Anything you want, you ask for it. 830 01:42:27,849 --> 01:42:30,784 Because Dr. Fortunati says you're to be pampered. 831 01:42:30,665 --> 01:42:32,323 Isn't it wonderful? 832 01:42:34,601 --> 01:42:36,161 Thanks for Felix. 833 01:43:18,702 --> 01:43:20,939 Refuse nothing. Ask for nothing. 834 01:43:23,054 --> 01:43:25,771 It's a prairie oyster. Swallow it quickly. 835 01:43:33,057 --> 01:43:36,603 Each night at 10:00 you'll be awakened with sandwiches and two glasses of wine. 836 01:43:36,673 --> 01:43:37,818 I see. 837 01:43:38,593 --> 01:43:40,982 The drums have already started passing the word... 838 01:43:41,056 --> 01:43:44,220 so by tomorrow we'll be swamped with food and drink for Sister Luke. 839 01:43:45,185 --> 01:43:46,462 Don't cry. 840 01:43:48,065 --> 01:43:50,105 Don't think too much. Relax. 841 01:43:50,977 --> 01:43:53,887 Live life as it comes. From day to day. 842 01:43:55,246 --> 01:43:58,033 I want you to drink as much of this Belgian beer as you can. 843 01:43:58,099 --> 01:44:01,579 Unless you want to come out of this gold dust cure with ruined kidneys. 844 01:44:01,651 --> 01:44:02,861 How can I drink so much-- 845 01:44:02,931 --> 01:44:06,412 It's all right, there's nobody to see you here except him. 846 01:44:10,803 --> 01:44:12,843 And you know about monkeys. 847 01:44:15,795 --> 01:44:18,489 That's right. It's good to see you laugh. 848 01:44:19,972 --> 01:44:21,916 You keep laughing, Sister. 849 01:44:23,206 --> 01:44:24,351 I will. 850 01:44:28,390 --> 01:44:31,489 I said rest. Absolute rest. 851 01:44:59,576 --> 01:45:01,169 Thank you, Mother. 852 01:45:02,937 --> 01:45:05,979 I don't know if I'm well yet, but I feel so well. 853 01:45:06,082 --> 01:45:07,746 So completely well. 854 01:45:08,072 --> 01:45:11,390 It's strange that I had to fall ill to learn to take each day and each night... 855 01:45:11,466 --> 01:45:14,433 as a gift from God. Without struggle. 856 01:45:14,891 --> 01:45:17,793 It seems impossible, but when I say my culpa to you next... 857 01:45:17,867 --> 01:45:21,664 I don't think I'll have any imperfections against the Rule to proclaim. 858 01:45:21,739 --> 01:45:25,448 Except that tonight you talked during the Grand Silence. 859 01:45:41,596 --> 01:45:43,735 That's a whole week of normal. 860 01:45:44,989 --> 01:45:48,698 You're allowed to have pride, Doctor. Take pride in your cure. 861 01:45:48,893 --> 01:45:50,354 Are you cured? 862 01:45:50,621 --> 01:45:53,377 The slides and the temperature seem to.... 863 01:45:55,435 --> 01:45:59,498 -It'll be good to have you back in surgery. -It'll be good to be useful again. 864 01:45:59,567 --> 01:46:00,909 Don't rush it, Sister. 865 01:46:00,975 --> 01:46:03,080 It's not going to be easy to return to the community. 866 01:46:03,151 --> 01:46:06,500 Even to this select little gathering here in the Congo. 867 01:46:10,127 --> 01:46:11,174 I'm going to miss this. 868 01:46:15,662 --> 01:46:16,746 Well. 869 01:46:36,097 --> 01:46:37,722 At least he's curious. 870 01:46:37,793 --> 01:46:41,094 If I could only get him into the chapel Christmas Eve. 871 01:46:45,267 --> 01:46:47,787 Well, what do you think of it, Ilunga? 872 01:46:49,459 --> 01:46:51,150 It's for the chapel. 873 01:46:52,212 --> 01:46:53,641 Christmas Eve. 874 01:46:59,507 --> 01:47:02,094 Come in. Come in and have a look at it. 875 01:47:14,663 --> 01:47:16,572 I'm afraid not this year. 876 01:47:18,438 --> 01:47:21,253 I would give anything if I could convert him. 877 01:47:45,465 --> 01:47:47,440 You spoil them, Sister. 878 01:47:47,800 --> 01:47:50,550 It's one of our building boys who's come for first aid. 879 01:47:50,617 --> 01:47:53,887 You think if you bandage their fingers, you'll get their souls. 880 01:47:53,954 --> 01:47:55,871 Well, maybe you're right. 881 01:47:57,323 --> 01:47:58,883 No, inside. Dispensary. 882 01:48:01,259 --> 01:48:02,404 No, inside. 883 01:48:32,876 --> 01:48:34,763 Ilunga, help me lift her. 884 01:48:36,108 --> 01:48:37,450 Ilunga. 885 01:48:41,942 --> 01:48:44,055 She is dead, Reverend Mother. 886 01:49:08,080 --> 01:49:09,258 Ilunga. 887 01:49:12,337 --> 01:49:16,112 If you're on your way to contagion, please take these to Sister Raphael. 888 01:49:24,561 --> 01:49:26,666 -I don't understand. -What? 889 01:49:26,801 --> 01:49:28,463 You're not angry with us? 890 01:49:28,566 --> 01:49:31,927 -There's no place in our hearts for anger. -But this killing, Mama Luke. 891 01:49:32,002 --> 01:49:33,432 Not even then. 892 01:49:34,820 --> 01:49:36,729 Why did he do it, Ilunga? 893 01:49:36,835 --> 01:49:39,552 A witch doctor told him that if he killed a white woman... 894 01:49:39,620 --> 01:49:42,337 he'd be rid of the ghost of his dead wife. 895 01:49:43,139 --> 01:49:44,700 I feel sorry for him. 896 01:49:44,484 --> 01:49:46,011 If such a death happened with us... 897 01:49:46,083 --> 01:49:48,734 we'd tie the murderer to a stake and cut his body for fish bait. 898 01:49:48,803 --> 01:49:51,620 But we would not. We've been taught to forgive. 899 01:49:51,686 --> 01:49:55,310 That's what you must try and make the other boys understand. 900 01:50:03,798 --> 01:50:07,540 Tell the boys we hope they'll all come to chapel Christmas Eve. 901 01:50:09,429 --> 01:50:11,252 Maybe even you, Ilunga. 902 01:52:15,413 --> 01:52:18,653 Sometime this afternoon we'll discus the Englebert case. 903 01:52:18,720 --> 01:52:21,594 I want to give you instructions for the trip. 904 01:52:21,637 --> 01:52:24,671 -The trip? -Yes. Hasn't Mother Mathilde told you? 905 01:52:24,901 --> 01:52:25,981 What? 906 01:52:26,277 --> 01:52:29,855 I have to send you back to Belgium. With the Englebert case. 907 01:52:33,605 --> 01:52:37,500 You are the only one qualified. The only one we can possibly send. 908 01:52:37,861 --> 01:52:39,774 He is important to the colony. 909 01:52:39,850 --> 01:52:42,314 And we can only avoid a complete mental breakdown... 910 01:52:42,387 --> 01:52:45,588 if we get him to a sanitarium with proper facilities. 911 01:52:45,655 --> 01:52:47,182 Of course, Mother. 912 01:52:47,255 --> 01:52:51,183 I hope the Mother House will return you to us as soon as possible. 913 01:52:51,480 --> 01:52:53,749 In the meantime, at long last... 914 01:52:54,135 --> 01:52:58,358 they are sending me another sister with qualifications similar to yours. 915 01:53:01,047 --> 01:53:04,436 Dr. Fortunati will give you instructions about the case. 916 01:53:04,606 --> 01:53:06,401 We shall all miss you. 917 01:53:06,951 --> 01:53:10,728 You'll have native guards to help you on the train as far as the coast. 918 01:53:10,794 --> 01:53:13,696 After that, the ship's doctor will share the responsibility. 919 01:53:13,770 --> 01:53:17,283 I'll give you a supply of sedatives in case he needs them. 920 01:53:17,481 --> 01:53:20,099 Do you think they'll send you back here? 921 01:53:20,169 --> 01:53:21,598 I don't know. 922 01:53:22,218 --> 01:53:25,087 -There's going to be a war in Europe. -I know. 923 01:53:27,147 --> 01:53:30,838 They tell me somebody else is coming out to fill in for you or take your place. 924 01:53:30,905 --> 01:53:33,046 -Yes. -Somebody else will have to train her. 925 01:53:33,115 --> 01:53:36,050 I'm taking a long vacation when you leave here. 926 01:53:38,140 --> 01:53:39,569 I couldn't help it. 927 01:53:39,644 --> 01:53:43,189 Englebert's an important man. There was nobody else, I had to send you. 928 01:53:43,260 --> 01:53:44,667 I understand. 929 01:53:44,924 --> 01:53:48,721 I wish I could keep you here. As much for your sake as for mine. 930 01:53:50,781 --> 01:53:53,759 Supposing they keep you indefinitely in Belgium? 931 01:53:54,634 --> 01:53:57,573 You seem so sure of your religious strength, but I'm not. 932 01:53:57,646 --> 01:54:01,639 Once you set foot in the Mother House, the walls, the discipline, the silence-- 933 01:54:01,710 --> 01:54:04,077 Will you indicate the dosage for the sedatives? 934 01:54:04,142 --> 01:54:07,438 But if they keep you indefinitely, will the strength be enough? 935 01:54:07,502 --> 01:54:08,549 Yes. 936 01:54:09,198 --> 01:54:11,751 You're sure it's not that ferocious will of yours? 937 01:54:11,822 --> 01:54:13,000 I'm sure. 938 01:54:13,070 --> 01:54:15,627 But when you get there, you're going to wish that you-- 939 01:54:15,698 --> 01:54:18,808 Doctor, a nun is not a person who wishes or desires. 940 01:54:18,877 --> 01:54:20,789 But you're going to feel that you can't.... 941 01:54:20,864 --> 01:54:23,963 When you're ready to discuss the case, please ring for me. 942 01:54:42,993 --> 01:54:45,484 I'm coming back, you beautiful thing. 943 01:54:47,124 --> 01:54:49,163 Do you hear me? I'm coming back. 944 01:55:31,672 --> 01:55:33,330 Come in, Mama Luke. 945 01:55:37,720 --> 01:55:39,246 This is for you. 946 01:55:47,224 --> 01:55:48,915 Tell them thank you. 947 01:57:47,508 --> 01:57:51,440 -How is your health, my child? -Very good, thank you, Reverend Mother. 948 01:57:51,512 --> 01:57:54,041 So many fine letters from colonial families... 949 01:57:54,113 --> 01:57:56,737 and missionary fathers about your good work. 950 01:57:56,807 --> 01:57:59,360 You were liked and respected by everyone out there... 951 01:57:59,430 --> 01:58:01,765 including your native boys, I see. 952 01:58:02,406 --> 01:58:05,123 Do you wish me to give it to your father? 953 01:58:06,598 --> 01:58:10,013 I would rather it be kept in the congregation to which it belongs. 954 01:58:10,086 --> 01:58:11,810 When I return to.... 955 01:58:12,390 --> 01:58:15,328 When I leave here, it will be good to know it is in the Mother House. 956 01:58:15,402 --> 01:58:17,548 That is very generous of you. 957 01:58:17,875 --> 01:58:21,841 You will be a splendid example for our postulants and novices here. 958 01:58:22,168 --> 01:58:24,951 And I think they will be good for you, too. 959 01:58:25,113 --> 01:58:28,822 The more we are looked to for example, the better examples we become. 960 01:58:28,888 --> 01:58:32,184 -Don't you find that true? -Yes, Reverend Mother. 961 01:58:32,249 --> 01:58:34,738 So, you will stay here with us then. 962 01:58:35,322 --> 01:58:37,296 Now, you must have a good rest. 963 01:58:37,369 --> 01:58:39,413 You must not worry about anything. 964 01:58:39,486 --> 01:58:42,080 Simply enjoy being home again. 965 01:58:42,632 --> 01:58:44,741 Couldn't I help at the hospital, Reverend Mother? 966 01:58:44,811 --> 01:58:47,015 No, my child, not now. 967 01:58:47,404 --> 01:58:51,081 You must have a few quiet months to renew your spiritual life. 968 01:58:54,540 --> 01:58:57,125 This will look very nice in our museum. 969 01:59:10,782 --> 01:59:11,862 Gaby. 970 01:59:17,662 --> 01:59:19,353 You look thin, Gaby. 971 01:59:21,278 --> 01:59:24,245 -You always say that, Father. -It's always true. 972 01:59:25,438 --> 01:59:26,847 No, it isn't. 973 01:59:28,068 --> 01:59:29,414 Of course... 974 01:59:29,802 --> 01:59:33,486 I don't believe that rubbish about your having had TB in the Congo. 975 01:59:33,553 --> 01:59:35,276 Don't believe it then. 976 01:59:35,344 --> 01:59:38,693 One just doesn't survive and have TB in the tropics. 977 01:59:39,088 --> 01:59:40,365 Here I am. 978 01:59:43,344 --> 01:59:45,483 You must've had a good doctor. 979 01:59:45,744 --> 01:59:47,086 Exceptional. 980 01:59:52,633 --> 01:59:56,124 I suppose they'll be sending you back after a little rest? 981 01:59:56,867 --> 01:59:58,111 I don't know. 982 01:59:58,179 --> 01:59:59,902 If there's not a war. 983 02:00:00,388 --> 02:00:03,105 They talked about nothing else on the boat. 984 02:00:04,803 --> 02:00:06,810 Your brother's in the army. 985 02:00:07,012 --> 02:00:09,433 -Little Pierre? -Oh, it's big Pierre. 986 02:00:10,083 --> 02:00:12,866 Your sisters?husbands are in the army, too. 987 02:00:12,932 --> 02:00:16,004 Marie and Louise will come to see you soon. 988 02:00:17,840 --> 02:00:19,569 There can't be a war. 989 02:00:22,869 --> 02:00:24,811 How are you, really, Gaby? 990 02:00:26,037 --> 02:00:29,201 I'm very well, Father. Would you like to see the x-rays? 991 02:00:29,270 --> 02:00:30,732 I mean in here. 992 02:00:32,405 --> 02:00:34,129 How are you in there? 993 02:00:34,614 --> 02:00:36,556 Still very lonely for you. 994 02:00:39,450 --> 02:00:43,260 You know, Jean never married. 995 02:00:44,872 --> 02:00:47,360 Father, you're an incurable romantic. 996 02:00:47,464 --> 02:00:49,798 Jean isn't in my thoughts anymore. 997 02:00:55,144 --> 02:00:58,341 I finally had to take a hand in training your successor... 998 02:00:58,408 --> 02:01:00,513 but she'll never replace you. 999 02:01:00,904 --> 02:01:02,947 She has no rebellion in her. 1000 02:01:03,307 --> 02:01:05,168 That girl was born to be a nun... 1001 02:01:05,234 --> 02:01:09,136 something you could never be in a thousand years, Reverend Sister. 1002 02:01:09,466 --> 02:01:12,401 You're not in love with him, are you, my child? 1003 02:01:13,082 --> 02:01:16,398 No, Mother, of course I've not fallen in love with him. 1004 02:01:16,474 --> 02:01:19,092 I admire him deeply for his skill and selflessness... 1005 02:01:19,162 --> 02:01:21,464 when there is a life to be saved. 1006 02:01:21,786 --> 02:01:23,793 I think always he's very close to God... 1007 02:01:23,866 --> 02:01:26,552 in those unearthly hours when he operates. 1008 02:01:37,356 --> 02:01:41,033 Dear Lord, help me to detach from these memories. 1009 02:01:41,677 --> 02:01:45,571 How can I be a good nun if I cannot get the Congo out of my blood? 1010 02:01:51,024 --> 02:01:54,231 Suppose you're detained in the Mother House indefinitely? 1011 02:01:54,298 --> 02:01:56,637 Will your strength be enough then? 1012 02:02:09,502 --> 02:02:12,502 Ordinarily, I would advise you to go on a retreat... 1013 02:02:12,574 --> 02:02:14,999 to try to regain your inner silence. 1014 02:02:15,780 --> 02:02:18,472 I have done nothing but pray and meditate. 1015 02:02:19,054 --> 02:02:23,312 Many years ago, I came back from the missions to the quiet of this house. 1016 02:02:24,145 --> 02:02:26,185 I know what you are feeling. 1017 02:02:26,736 --> 02:02:29,420 There can be no comparison, Reverend Mother. 1018 02:02:29,489 --> 02:02:32,750 I've been remembering you especially in my prayers... 1019 02:02:33,137 --> 02:02:35,920 knowing the agony you've been going through. 1020 02:02:36,530 --> 02:02:40,017 For weeks, each tap on my door, I thought it would be you. 1021 02:02:42,689 --> 02:02:46,336 I know it would have been the greater perfection to have stayed here quietly. 1022 02:02:46,404 --> 02:02:48,826 And the greater danger in your case. 1023 02:02:50,244 --> 02:02:53,627 I can't send you back to the Congo with the talk of war. 1024 02:02:58,724 --> 02:03:02,238 But there is an important post as Assistant in Surgery... 1025 02:03:02,309 --> 02:03:04,871 at our hospital on the Holland border. 1026 02:03:04,942 --> 02:03:06,956 Thank you, Reverend Mother. 1027 02:03:23,542 --> 02:03:27,771 I have just received a telephone call from our Reverend Mother Emmanuel. 1028 02:03:28,446 --> 02:03:31,040 "At 3:00 a.m. Rotterdam was bombarded... 1029 02:03:31,784 --> 02:03:33,606 "many thousands killed. 1030 02:03:34,408 --> 02:03:36,645 "Belgium was bombarded at 5:00. 1031 02:03:38,025 --> 02:03:40,774 "The country's system of sluices had been put into operation... 1032 02:03:40,840 --> 02:03:45,313 "and certain main roads are already blown up to prevent the German advances." 1033 02:03:46,824 --> 02:03:49,541 I tell you this only that you will be prepared. 1034 02:03:49,608 --> 02:03:52,551 Our work must go on as if nothing has happened. 1035 02:03:52,818 --> 02:03:57,137 It will be your responsibility to set the example of courage and calm. 1036 02:03:57,819 --> 02:04:01,561 And to retain in your hearts the spirit of charity for all. 1037 02:04:02,203 --> 02:04:04,440 Even the enemies of our country. 1038 02:04:34,298 --> 02:04:37,049 "Brussels fell to the enemy today. 1039 02:04:38,078 --> 02:04:40,508 "All of Holland is in German hands. 1040 02:04:42,059 --> 02:04:44,232 "The Maginot Line has fallen... 1041 02:04:44,524 --> 02:04:46,979 "and Northern France has been occupied." 1042 02:04:51,372 --> 02:04:54,186 "The Belgian Army, the British Expeditionary Forces... 1043 02:04:54,252 --> 02:04:56,074 "and the Ninth French Army... 1044 02:04:56,140 --> 02:04:58,660 "are fighting with their backs to the sea at Dunkirk." 1045 02:05:05,275 --> 02:05:07,699 King Leopold has signed a surrender. 1046 02:05:08,574 --> 02:05:12,251 He asks the population to behave with dignity and discipline. 1047 02:05:12,990 --> 02:05:15,707 The sisters are urged not to take sides... 1048 02:05:16,030 --> 02:05:20,340 and not to participate in any activity against the forces of occupation... 1049 02:05:20,702 --> 02:05:24,150 so that the orderly life of the community is not disturbed... 1050 02:05:24,223 --> 02:05:27,714 and so that our hospital work may go on without confusion. 1051 02:05:52,156 --> 02:05:54,912 I can only say again, monsieur, that Mademoiselle Lisa... 1052 02:05:54,979 --> 02:05:57,761 cannot accept telephone calls while on duty. 1053 02:06:03,170 --> 02:06:06,018 All right, Father, just a moment. 1054 02:06:21,653 --> 02:06:23,987 Someone who says he's Father John. 1055 02:06:41,991 --> 02:06:45,341 Sister Luke, may I have permission to go into town for an hour? 1056 02:06:45,416 --> 02:06:46,976 My uncle is sick. 1057 02:07:05,624 --> 02:07:09,106 Now, Lisa, you've used that "sick uncle" excuse twice in the last week. 1058 02:07:09,178 --> 02:07:10,585 -Have I? -Yes. 1059 02:07:10,779 --> 02:07:13,594 -I have to go, Sister. -Then tell me why. 1060 02:07:13,659 --> 02:07:15,514 You say you want to become a nun. 1061 02:07:15,579 --> 02:07:19,059 Well, one of the first things to learn is obedience to.... 1062 02:07:24,796 --> 02:07:28,703 We are hiding our soldiers who escaped. We're hoping to get them to England. 1063 02:07:28,937 --> 02:07:31,243 -The underground-- -That's enough. 1064 02:07:31,405 --> 02:07:34,340 -Your brother may be one of the boys-- -Please. 1065 02:07:36,717 --> 02:07:38,124 I have to go. 1066 02:07:44,045 --> 02:07:45,474 Please, may I? 1067 02:07:45,965 --> 02:07:48,299 If ever I can be of help, tell me. 1068 02:07:49,553 --> 02:07:50,669 Hurry. 1069 02:07:55,360 --> 02:07:57,498 Did you mean that, about help? 1070 02:08:09,183 --> 02:08:11,998 Dear Lord, forgive me, I cannot obey anymore. 1071 02:08:12,673 --> 02:08:15,749 What I do from now on is between You and me alone. 1072 02:08:32,754 --> 02:08:35,242 I have a letter for you, Sister Luke. 1073 02:08:37,430 --> 02:08:39,608 Then I'll have to show it to Mother Superior. 1074 02:08:39,677 --> 02:08:40,793 Don't. 1075 02:10:05,115 --> 02:10:07,286 If such a death happened with us, Mama Luke... 1076 02:10:07,355 --> 02:10:11,065 we'd tie the murderer to a stake and cut his body for fish bait. 1077 02:10:11,131 --> 02:10:14,172 But we would not. We have been taught to forgive. 1078 02:10:28,046 --> 02:10:29,355 Oh, Father! 1079 02:10:47,280 --> 02:10:49,899 Father, I no longer belong in a convent. 1080 02:10:51,761 --> 02:10:53,900 Why do you say that, my child? 1081 02:10:54,129 --> 02:10:56,714 I am a hypocrite in the religious life. 1082 02:10:57,297 --> 02:11:00,428 I wear the habit of obedience, but I flout the Rule. 1083 02:11:02,034 --> 02:11:04,978 I wear the cross of Christ above a heart filled with hate. 1084 02:11:05,051 --> 02:11:08,703 You must try, my child. These times are sent to test us. 1085 02:11:10,371 --> 02:11:12,892 I wonder if I'm even a good Christian. 1086 02:11:13,123 --> 02:11:16,352 When I think of my father, I can't forgive the enemy. 1087 02:11:17,859 --> 02:11:20,194 And this is only one of my faults. 1088 02:11:20,259 --> 02:11:23,936 You must pray to God to deliver you from revenge in the heart. 1089 02:11:24,259 --> 02:11:26,751 Today, a German war nurse died here... 1090 02:11:27,305 --> 02:11:29,931 and try as I would, I couldn't regret it. 1091 02:11:30,578 --> 02:11:33,964 My whole lifework has been dedicated to saving lives... 1092 02:11:34,517 --> 02:11:36,306 and I almost rejoiced. 1093 02:11:36,726 --> 02:11:38,864 Perhaps it is too much to ask. 1094 02:11:39,989 --> 02:11:42,094 Father, I don't believe that. 1095 02:11:42,197 --> 02:11:44,139 It is not too much to ask. 1096 02:11:46,165 --> 02:11:47,988 I simply cannot obey... 1097 02:11:48,661 --> 02:11:52,827 -and if I cannot obey, then-- -You're so hard on yourself, my child. 1098 02:11:54,437 --> 02:11:57,375 Father, please lay my case before the Cardinal. 1099 02:11:59,944 --> 02:12:01,667 I am no longer a nun. 1100 02:12:03,688 --> 02:12:06,306 You solemnly promised to obey unto death. 1101 02:12:07,848 --> 02:12:10,914 You should seek God's pleasure and your own joy... 1102 02:12:11,080 --> 02:12:13,317 in keeping faith with your vows. 1103 02:12:14,218 --> 02:12:17,195 Sacrifice is the only test to thy love of God. 1104 02:12:19,643 --> 02:12:22,458 You will make a novena to our Blessed Virgin. 1105 02:12:23,579 --> 02:12:25,521 She always works miracles. 1106 02:12:26,267 --> 02:12:27,958 Haven't you noticed? 1107 02:12:33,978 --> 02:12:36,499 All right, Father, because you ask me. 1108 02:12:41,992 --> 02:12:45,609 Reverend Mother Emmanuel is paying a visit in a week's time. 1109 02:12:46,764 --> 02:12:48,869 Please wait and speak to her. 1110 02:12:49,292 --> 02:12:51,780 I do not want to see Mother Emmanuel. 1111 02:12:52,621 --> 02:12:55,589 Are you afraid she'll dissuade you from leaving? 1112 02:12:56,012 --> 02:12:57,441 It isn't that. 1113 02:12:58,477 --> 02:13:00,681 Please lay my case before the Cardinal. 1114 02:13:00,749 --> 02:13:02,958 Won't you wait a little longer? 1115 02:13:03,925 --> 02:13:05,840 Father, you must forgive me... 1116 02:13:05,915 --> 02:13:08,636 but if you do not put my case before the Cardinal... 1117 02:13:08,703 --> 02:13:11,092 I should do something that would kill me. 1118 02:13:11,167 --> 02:13:13,469 I shall leave without permission. 1119 02:13:37,593 --> 02:13:40,277 Why did you make me ask for you, my child? 1120 02:13:40,506 --> 02:13:43,767 Didn't you know that I'd been aware of your struggle? 1121 02:13:44,505 --> 02:13:47,091 It is too late for discussions, Reverend Mother. 1122 02:13:47,161 --> 02:13:49,049 I'm at the end of my struggles. 1123 02:13:49,113 --> 02:13:50,939 Your sisters love you... 1124 02:13:51,005 --> 02:13:52,833 the doctors trust you... 1125 02:13:52,898 --> 02:13:55,524 and your students respect you enormously. 1126 02:13:57,067 --> 02:13:59,206 You can cheat your sisters... 1127 02:14:00,332 --> 02:14:02,820 but you cannot cheat yourself or God. 1128 02:14:03,404 --> 02:14:07,659 Have you struggled long enough to say surely that you've come to the end? 1129 02:14:08,748 --> 02:14:12,425 I think I've been struggling all these years, Reverend Mother. 1130 02:14:13,579 --> 02:14:17,333 In the beginning, each struggle seemed different from the one before it. 1131 02:14:17,399 --> 02:14:19,347 But then they began to repeat... 1132 02:14:19,452 --> 02:14:22,519 and I saw they all had the same core: obedience... 1133 02:14:22,974 --> 02:14:24,567 without question... 1134 02:14:24,638 --> 02:14:26,525 without inner murmuring. 1135 02:14:27,102 --> 02:14:29,884 Perfect obedience as Christ practiced it... 1136 02:14:30,398 --> 02:14:32,056 as I no longer can. 1137 02:14:33,182 --> 02:14:34,198 Yes? 1138 02:14:36,030 --> 02:14:39,199 There are times when my conscience asks which has priority. 1139 02:14:39,267 --> 02:14:40,996 It or the Holy Rule? 1140 02:14:42,670 --> 02:14:44,647 When the bell calls me to chapel... 1141 02:14:44,721 --> 02:14:47,591 I often have to sacrifice what might be the decisive moment... 1142 02:14:47,664 --> 02:14:49,999 in a spiritual talk with a patient. 1143 02:14:50,065 --> 02:14:53,196 I'm late every day for chapel or refectory or both. 1144 02:14:53,776 --> 02:14:56,013 When I have night duty, I break the Grand Silence... 1145 02:14:56,081 --> 02:15:00,554 because I can no longer cut short a talk with a patient who seems to need me. 1146 02:15:01,746 --> 02:15:05,368 Mother, why must God's helpers be struck dumb by five bells... 1147 02:15:05,436 --> 02:15:09,502 in the very hours when men in trouble want to talk about their souls? 1148 02:15:12,419 --> 02:15:16,281 You entered the convent to be a nun, not to be a nurse. 1149 02:15:16,867 --> 02:15:21,275 The religious life must be more important to you than your love of medicine. 1150 02:15:25,732 --> 02:15:28,358 Won't you make one more effort for God? 1151 02:15:29,263 --> 02:15:31,473 And for me as His instrument? 1152 02:15:33,493 --> 02:15:35,632 I have tried, Reverend Mother. 1153 02:15:41,302 --> 02:15:44,880 When I go from here, I shall take you with me in my heart... 1154 02:15:45,621 --> 02:15:48,523 and keep you each day in my prayers. 1155 02:16:27,019 --> 02:16:29,158 -Lisa. -Sister. 1156 02:16:30,795 --> 02:16:33,861 Lisa, you often talked about entering the convent. 1157 02:16:33,931 --> 02:16:35,873 Yes, Sister. I'm going to. 1158 02:16:37,003 --> 02:16:40,425 You're not entering because of any personal feeling of admiration... 1159 02:16:40,498 --> 02:16:42,063 you might have... 1160 02:16:43,033 --> 02:16:44,859 for any of the sisters? 1161 02:16:45,469 --> 02:16:48,698 No, not really. I don't think so. 1162 02:16:50,781 --> 02:16:53,945 I just wanted to know, Lisa, because I'm going out. 1163 02:16:56,350 --> 02:16:58,259 I felt you were going to. 1164 02:16:59,294 --> 02:17:01,236 I'm glad you're coming in. 1165 02:17:02,527 --> 02:17:04,900 Is it certain that you're leaving? 1166 02:17:05,672 --> 02:17:07,105 I have asked. 1167 02:17:08,464 --> 02:17:10,025 What happens now? 1168 02:17:11,247 --> 02:17:12,709 I have no idea. 1169 02:17:16,880 --> 02:17:18,473 Here's an address. 1170 02:17:19,440 --> 02:17:21,578 The underground needs nurses. 1171 02:17:24,272 --> 02:17:27,472 -We shall miss you. -And I shall miss.... 1172 02:17:33,122 --> 02:17:36,024 You'll be a fine nun, Lisa. Not a failure. 1173 02:17:49,986 --> 02:17:53,607 As a representative of the Archbishop, I must ask you, Sister Luke... 1174 02:17:53,675 --> 02:17:56,499 if you are doing this of your own free will? 1175 02:17:56,948 --> 02:17:57,962 Yes. 1176 02:17:58,548 --> 02:18:02,771 Sister, have you really considered the seriousness of what you're doing? 1177 02:18:03,828 --> 02:18:04,842 Yes. 1178 02:18:11,060 --> 02:18:13,875 There are these three papers to sign, Sister. 1179 02:18:15,255 --> 02:18:17,531 One copy is for you, one is for us... 1180 02:18:17,598 --> 02:18:19,971 and one is for the papal archives. 1181 02:18:29,447 --> 02:18:31,356 Have you somewhere to go? 1182 02:18:35,208 --> 02:18:36,222 Yes. 1183 02:18:38,441 --> 02:18:40,836 Sister, is there nothing we can do? 1184 02:18:43,060 --> 02:18:44,242 Nothing. 1185 02:19:24,132 --> 02:19:26,654 From here you will go to the portress?room. 1186 02:19:26,726 --> 02:19:29,352 She will give you further instructions. 1187 02:19:32,534 --> 02:19:34,955 You may leave your keys on my desk. 1188 02:19:48,950 --> 02:19:52,700 And in conclusion, the dowry your father gave when you entered. 1189 02:19:58,185 --> 02:19:59,746 You must take it. 1190 02:21:15,232 --> 02:21:18,199 Go through here to Room 12. Everything is ready. 1191 02:21:18,624 --> 02:21:21,940 Press the button when you are finished and I will open.